weird.
i cried over badih the other day.
i haven't really cried much about him since last september. sure there was a lot of hurt. but crying maybe not so much. this was the first time i cried since everything happened in march or april. whenever it happened idk.
it was so dumb. it's like i dont know that person anymore. it's like i never was with him like he doesn't exist. its refreshing in so many ways.
but what i cried about was that i let myself go through all of that. all those years of abuse.
i have a someone now that wants to treat me well. it'd hurt him to see me hurt. and i the same.
i adore him.
marissa's fashion show is tonight i'm super excited. it her senior show.
i turned in my work yesterday morning at 8am. we'll see if i make it through the program. if not, idk what i'm going to do. probably die. ha
ok nap time.
i'm uber sleep deprived.
i haven't really cried much about him since last september. sure there was a lot of hurt. but crying maybe not so much. this was the first time i cried since everything happened in march or april. whenever it happened idk.
it was so dumb. it's like i dont know that person anymore. it's like i never was with him like he doesn't exist. its refreshing in so many ways.
but what i cried about was that i let myself go through all of that. all those years of abuse.
i have a someone now that wants to treat me well. it'd hurt him to see me hurt. and i the same.
i adore him.
marissa's fashion show is tonight i'm super excited. it her senior show.
i turned in my work yesterday morning at 8am. we'll see if i make it through the program. if not, idk what i'm going to do. probably die. ha
ok nap time.
i'm uber sleep deprived.