my dreams
suck.
i haven't been able to have a good dream in years.
i know part of the reason they were happening for so long but now i have my closure and i'm good so why is it still happening? is it because i'm stressed about school possibly kicking my ass this semester???
maybe it's being back in denton again and feeling like "the mexican" out of everyone.
or being totally unattractive and dumb to ever guy i meet up here because i'm "the mexican."
rude.
but its so true. i feel the worst about myself when i'm up here. i feel like a hideous elephant. its so gross and embarrassing. i hate myself more than anything when i'm up here.
school and the work load is the only thing that keeps me ok bc i have something positive to focus on instead of being judged by everyone that's around! =(
the weather isn't that cold up here. thank god.
maybe i can buy a purse instead of uggs!
haha
well time to shower and clean my room so i can start unpacking! whoop whoop!
<3
i haven't been able to have a good dream in years.
i know part of the reason they were happening for so long but now i have my closure and i'm good so why is it still happening? is it because i'm stressed about school possibly kicking my ass this semester???
maybe it's being back in denton again and feeling like "the mexican" out of everyone.
or being totally unattractive and dumb to ever guy i meet up here because i'm "the mexican."
rude.
but its so true. i feel the worst about myself when i'm up here. i feel like a hideous elephant. its so gross and embarrassing. i hate myself more than anything when i'm up here.
school and the work load is the only thing that keeps me ok bc i have something positive to focus on instead of being judged by everyone that's around! =(
the weather isn't that cold up here. thank god.
maybe i can buy a purse instead of uggs!
haha
well time to shower and clean my room so i can start unpacking! whoop whoop!
<3