Guilty
I am always guilty all the time. It sucks and I even feel guilty for feeling guilty! ha.
As I sit at my desk running my hands through my hair feeling GUILTY I hate the horrid dread settling in my stumic. Why can't I be a person who water rolls of their back? No, I seem to swallow it. It seeps into my skin like the sun. Maybe that is why I hate the sun so much it soaks into my skin without being asked. Yesterday I cut the ties to my last string to church. Like Dr. Manhatton in Watchmen I only had one tie left to church and I cut it. I don't really feel to bothered about it. Other then seeing the people I cut. But time does move on. Now I will be free to do and go where I want without strings. Does this make me a bad person? Oh look here comes GUILT again all hail GUILT. Some days I just wish I could lay down and die. Would be so much more peaceful and resting.
As I sit at my desk running my hands through my hair feeling GUILTY I hate the horrid dread settling in my stumic. Why can't I be a person who water rolls of their back? No, I seem to swallow it. It seeps into my skin like the sun. Maybe that is why I hate the sun so much it soaks into my skin without being asked. Yesterday I cut the ties to my last string to church. Like Dr. Manhatton in Watchmen I only had one tie left to church and I cut it. I don't really feel to bothered about it. Other then seeing the people I cut. But time does move on. Now I will be free to do and go where I want without strings. Does this make me a bad person? Oh look here comes GUILT again all hail GUILT. Some days I just wish I could lay down and die. Would be so much more peaceful and resting.