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I have no concept of time.
I don't know when I started drinking my feelings away.
But I know that it has to stop.
Then maybe I will have a concept of time.
I use to put others first, now I put the bottle first.
I woke up next to someone I cared about for the first time in months.
It was one of the best feelings in the world.
The next time I called him screaming that he didn't come out.
Then tonight I was on the phone with him crying out one apology after the other.
I've been so apologetic lately, which is a sign I need new habits.
New hobbies. New feelings. New insides. Maybe new hair?
I don't know when I started drinking my feelings away.
But I know that it has to stop.
Then maybe I will have a concept of time.
I use to put others first, now I put the bottle first.
I woke up next to someone I cared about for the first time in months.
It was one of the best feelings in the world.
The next time I called him screaming that he didn't come out.
Then tonight I was on the phone with him crying out one apology after the other.
I've been so apologetic lately, which is a sign I need new habits.
New hobbies. New feelings. New insides. Maybe new hair?