Jaylin's done
I had been thinking about doing it for a while, but i decided to make it official yesterday. I've come to the conclusion that the name, Jaylin, no longer fits me. I just can't afford the kid anymore. That name's like a winter coat in the summer, to me right now. Once things are close to being what they used to be maybe i'll bring the name back.... but who knows. If it does come back it won't represent what it did in the beginning.
Something really weird about today.... I got a couple messages about the Jaylin's Dead title i put on my Myspace page. That wasn't the weird part tho. Randomly, i browsed some profiles (which is kinna normal for me...i get bored on there a lot), and i found "Jay".... I kinna felt my heart skip a beat when that pic came up. I recognized her instantly. I've done searches, on and off, for something like 10 years, (a lot of the searches happened on myspace too) and i find her the day after i kill off the name she helped create.
I clicked on the page and looked around at the pics to make sure it was actually her. (which was dumd because i knew exactly who it was) But i noticed that she has two kids and looks like she has a husband or something. Wow. Can't say i expected to see that. After looking at the page for a while, i decided to send her a message and say something...but what do you say to someone you haven't seen or heard from since jr high?... I left a little message tho...one saying hey, it's been a while, glad to see you're doing well, take care, and signed it, Earl M.
At this point, i'm not concerned with her response. I feel like i've said what i could, and now i can move past that point in my life. If she does choose to respond, then maybe that'll last for two or three messages, and then we'll be done. I'm certainly not going to get into the origins of the name Jaylin and how i've searched for her for this long period of time....Sounds kinna stalker-ish if you ask me. I, honestly feel kinna satisfied now that i've finally found the chick. Now if i could only find a way to make 3 million dollars and spend the rest of my life living off the interest and working a shitty job just for a little extra pocket money.
I'm a little tired of typing now so i'll say, goodbye Jaylin....see ya later and goodbye Jay...have a nice life.
-EM