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Hey ive been up since before 4am - life is ok apart from University stress.
Me and my Boyfriend are back together after a month break - but its nice cos i feel like i still have my own space cos i know i can be independent and i dont have to rely on him all the time. I learnt that while we were apart.
I feel myself getting increasingly scared about the amount of fat on my body. I look at the photos from last year and although i realize im 100 times healthier now - i cant help but think i looked better then.
There seems to be a battle in my head - live and be healthy....but i dont feel i have archived the look i want.... and i dont get it! because celebrities can seemingly live happily and healthy at 90bls and i cant with out being really ill!
Did anyone see (UK) 'The truth about size 0' on Wednesday night?? It will hopefully open some peoples eyes - and i was on the diet last year for 9 months..... but it was given to me by a doctor..... in my opinion although he thought i needed it to recover some from a bowel disease - he should have been monitoring me more closely cos at the 9 month point i was collapsing all over the place. And now i have weight issues cos i know i can drop weight quick.
Hope every1 is well xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Me and my Boyfriend are back together after a month break - but its nice cos i feel like i still have my own space cos i know i can be independent and i dont have to rely on him all the time. I learnt that while we were apart.
I feel myself getting increasingly scared about the amount of fat on my body. I look at the photos from last year and although i realize im 100 times healthier now - i cant help but think i looked better then.
There seems to be a battle in my head - live and be healthy....but i dont feel i have archived the look i want.... and i dont get it! because celebrities can seemingly live happily and healthy at 90bls and i cant with out being really ill!
Did anyone see (UK) 'The truth about size 0' on Wednesday night?? It will hopefully open some peoples eyes - and i was on the diet last year for 9 months..... but it was given to me by a doctor..... in my opinion although he thought i needed it to recover some from a bowel disease - he should have been monitoring me more closely cos at the 9 month point i was collapsing all over the place. And now i have weight issues cos i know i can drop weight quick.
Hope every1 is well xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx