I don't think you annoy people. I mean from your post tonight I totally now understand the correct way to spell the term wayside. I totally botched that on my last journal.
I think you need to go out and seek. Don't worry so much about paying your student loans off and make the changes you need to. I mean ehever we have hung out you don't seem horribly awkward. I think you just need more experiences interacting with people. I am sorry I have been so busy this lately.. hell I have ben jam packed since August and just got over another cold. It;s hard to get out there and do things. It's easy to feel self conscious, that's normal... I know I think sometimes, "shit, did I really just say that??" Nobody is perfect, everyone makes mistakes.
But you are so hard on yourself!
I think the weather may be getting to ya too. I know there were some shows you were going to this summer. Maybe see if there is something down in IC or DSM. I know you drive alot for work. But I think Hey, you are a single man that has a job and a car. There is no reason you shouldn't be out enjoying yourself, taking adrive, listening to some music.
Yup. Way too hard on yourself. But that's ok, it's winter and we are all feeling that way so try to shake it off and enjoy those around you who really appreciate you.
I think you need to go out and seek. Don't worry so much about paying your student loans off and make the changes you need to. I mean ehever we have hung out you don't seem horribly awkward. I think you just need more experiences interacting with people. I am sorry I have been so busy this lately.. hell I have ben jam packed since August and just got over another cold. It;s hard to get out there and do things. It's easy to feel self conscious, that's normal... I know I think sometimes, "shit, did I really just say that??" Nobody is perfect, everyone makes mistakes.
But you are so hard on yourself!
I think the weather may be getting to ya too. I know there were some shows you were going to this summer. Maybe see if there is something down in IC or DSM. I know you drive alot for work. But I think Hey, you are a single man that has a job and a car. There is no reason you shouldn't be out enjoying yourself, taking adrive, listening to some music.
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