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oh man. all i could think about at rehearsal was going home and now that i'm here i am freakin' bored outta my skull. all i want to do is talk to daryl, i know he's online but my aim isn't working so i can't get to him. damn it all.
cue-to-cue was an absolute nightmare tonight. i don't even know why, but it just was. i mean, i know that this is what i chose as my profession, so i'm well aware of what it takes. but for some reason i was having a really tough time out there tonight. i haven't done a show since all that shit with my eyes, and they were really bothering me today. i hope they adjust or w/e before the show. i don't want it to hold me back anymore. i want to be independent and handle it on my own, but sometimes i just wish d could hold my hand and be my escort around stuff so i don't feel so goddamn blind.
phew. sorry. just had to get that off my chest.
anyways...hopefully rehearsal tomorrow will be a bit more relaxed.
to d, the only one who's hand i can feel when it's offered, i love you. call me babe.
cue-to-cue was an absolute nightmare tonight. i don't even know why, but it just was. i mean, i know that this is what i chose as my profession, so i'm well aware of what it takes. but for some reason i was having a really tough time out there tonight. i haven't done a show since all that shit with my eyes, and they were really bothering me today. i hope they adjust or w/e before the show. i don't want it to hold me back anymore. i want to be independent and handle it on my own, but sometimes i just wish d could hold my hand and be my escort around stuff so i don't feel so goddamn blind.
phew. sorry. just had to get that off my chest.
anyways...hopefully rehearsal tomorrow will be a bit more relaxed.
to d, the only one who's hand i can feel when it's offered, i love you. call me babe.