(no subject)
had a rough couple of days.
i'm really starting to question myself. i don't know if the decisions i'm making are the right ones for the people around me. i worry about my friends, d, everyone constantly. i can't get away from it. my mind is never quiet. it is so frustrating.
i need home. for me, home is anywhere that daryl is. i know it sounds stupid, but we established it a long time ago. i am so completely comfortable around him. there are no false pretenses with us. but right now, there's really nowhere for us to go...we want our own place so desperately. but given each of our situations, it's impossible right now.
he's 21. already on fucking workman's compensation because of national vacuum. it's ridiculous. i don't want to have to hold my breath every time he walks out the door to go to work. he has a week off for now, because of his back injury. i hope he gets some freedom. we both need it. i'm trying to be there for him the best i can, but i don't know if it's good enough.
*sigh* and then there's school. always fun. rehearsal tonight will hopefully prove to be drama-free. otherwise, it's gonna get ugly. and i am not in the mood. and i know no one else is either.
bye for now...
xoxoxo
i'm really starting to question myself. i don't know if the decisions i'm making are the right ones for the people around me. i worry about my friends, d, everyone constantly. i can't get away from it. my mind is never quiet. it is so frustrating.
i need home. for me, home is anywhere that daryl is. i know it sounds stupid, but we established it a long time ago. i am so completely comfortable around him. there are no false pretenses with us. but right now, there's really nowhere for us to go...we want our own place so desperately. but given each of our situations, it's impossible right now.
he's 21. already on fucking workman's compensation because of national vacuum. it's ridiculous. i don't want to have to hold my breath every time he walks out the door to go to work. he has a week off for now, because of his back injury. i hope he gets some freedom. we both need it. i'm trying to be there for him the best i can, but i don't know if it's good enough.
*sigh* and then there's school. always fun. rehearsal tonight will hopefully prove to be drama-free. otherwise, it's gonna get ugly. and i am not in the mood. and i know no one else is either.
bye for now...
xoxoxo