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i believe i am stuck in a mental rut. or maybe it's physical...i don't know.
i'm tired all of the time. i despise waking up and getting ready for school, but when i don't i feel gross and unproductive. technically, i'm not even registered. mommy dearest canceled the bill. so i have to see if they'll let me in again. so much for getting the hell out of nccc.
so really, there's no point in going to school for anything but rehearsals, because i won't be getting graded anyways. *sigh* i hate school.
and this whole living at home on the couch thing is already really old. i just got cleared to get my license, so after a little review, i'll finally be able to drive. and then i can get a job, and work wherever i want/need to. so that soon enough, between the two of us, daryl and i will have enough to move out and have a sweet-ass apartment where we can have kick-ass parties and such. that day cannot come soon enough. it's hard to find reasons why we shouldn't be able to spend every night next to eachother. and i don't even care about all that "being too young" bullshit. i'm ready now. plus, i've done it once before.
i just want to get back to a good place again. i want to reinstate my goals, work harder at my craft, and become even more creative. there are so many mediums that i have barely explored. i want to start working out again, dance harder, and just be happy.
too bad it can't all happen overnight.
i'm tired all of the time. i despise waking up and getting ready for school, but when i don't i feel gross and unproductive. technically, i'm not even registered. mommy dearest canceled the bill. so i have to see if they'll let me in again. so much for getting the hell out of nccc.
so really, there's no point in going to school for anything but rehearsals, because i won't be getting graded anyways. *sigh* i hate school.
and this whole living at home on the couch thing is already really old. i just got cleared to get my license, so after a little review, i'll finally be able to drive. and then i can get a job, and work wherever i want/need to. so that soon enough, between the two of us, daryl and i will have enough to move out and have a sweet-ass apartment where we can have kick-ass parties and such. that day cannot come soon enough. it's hard to find reasons why we shouldn't be able to spend every night next to eachother. and i don't even care about all that "being too young" bullshit. i'm ready now. plus, i've done it once before.
i just want to get back to a good place again. i want to reinstate my goals, work harder at my craft, and become even more creative. there are so many mediums that i have barely explored. i want to start working out again, dance harder, and just be happy.
too bad it can't all happen overnight.