Kimura Kissed Me
A bit of background: I am poly but I prefer monogamous relationships. There are a lot of people I love or am in love with, but I choose to focus my efforts into one at a time, usually.
Currently, I have a romantic interest I put time and effort into, I call him Duck. He broke up with me a while back and we've been doing couple things but not a couple in his eyes. He still loves me. I can understand if he said we're not long term bf/gf, but for now we are. However, he's completely not into the dating thing at all. It's a cause for most stress for me but at the same time, I've grown so much from his love and support.
The other one, let's call him Kimura. The typical Gamestop employee gamer geek. I have been in love with him for almost all the two years I've known him. He has squicky feelings about relationships so nothing every came of it. I missed my chance when I moved to Chicago for a few months, he ended up dating a girl that left him even more sour towards it. I just accepted something won't happen and that was that. We've had a physical relationship before, and he showed a fondness toward me. Otherwise, my love was unrequited; Duck appeared in my life and I chose to focus on him.
I've been lightly involved (mostly cuddles) with a third player in this game, L. He's not really a factor, aside from showing me by his affection, how distant Duck has become.
So, after driving me home and talking a bit, Kimura smiled awkwardly and asked what the right protocol was. I clamed up and shrugged, he pulled me towards him and kissed me. We've kissed before yes, but this was after a discussion about not having interest even in what we had before. We continued to kiss, and I felt lingers of what we were at one point. From the look in his eyes, I could see he felt it too.
We talked, at length about random things, like we did back then. Then it came up that he considered our interlude a romantic one in his history. Talked of a new store possibly forming in our area and he might move back if it happens. Made promises to visit me again.
He never lived up to those same promises when we were living in the same city. Now he lives an hour away. I won't hold my breath on such promises. We kissed a lot in my apartment's parking lot. In that Grand Cherokee, that I've had so many confessions and memories in.
Those eyes, his soft lips and skin. I fear I've let him in again.
Then there's Duck. I see a future there as well. Three years later, I still don't know if two half somethings are worth it... I'd like to try again. If he lives up to his word, that is.
To choose between a water fowl or a gaijin ronin, both of which have no guaranteed outcome, which would you choose? Would you even choose?
Currently, I have a romantic interest I put time and effort into, I call him Duck. He broke up with me a while back and we've been doing couple things but not a couple in his eyes. He still loves me. I can understand if he said we're not long term bf/gf, but for now we are. However, he's completely not into the dating thing at all. It's a cause for most stress for me but at the same time, I've grown so much from his love and support.
The other one, let's call him Kimura. The typical Gamestop employee gamer geek. I have been in love with him for almost all the two years I've known him. He has squicky feelings about relationships so nothing every came of it. I missed my chance when I moved to Chicago for a few months, he ended up dating a girl that left him even more sour towards it. I just accepted something won't happen and that was that. We've had a physical relationship before, and he showed a fondness toward me. Otherwise, my love was unrequited; Duck appeared in my life and I chose to focus on him.
I've been lightly involved (mostly cuddles) with a third player in this game, L. He's not really a factor, aside from showing me by his affection, how distant Duck has become.
So, after driving me home and talking a bit, Kimura smiled awkwardly and asked what the right protocol was. I clamed up and shrugged, he pulled me towards him and kissed me. We've kissed before yes, but this was after a discussion about not having interest even in what we had before. We continued to kiss, and I felt lingers of what we were at one point. From the look in his eyes, I could see he felt it too.
We talked, at length about random things, like we did back then. Then it came up that he considered our interlude a romantic one in his history. Talked of a new store possibly forming in our area and he might move back if it happens. Made promises to visit me again.
He never lived up to those same promises when we were living in the same city. Now he lives an hour away. I won't hold my breath on such promises. We kissed a lot in my apartment's parking lot. In that Grand Cherokee, that I've had so many confessions and memories in.
Those eyes, his soft lips and skin. I fear I've let him in again.
Then there's Duck. I see a future there as well. Three years later, I still don't know if two half somethings are worth it... I'd like to try again. If he lives up to his word, that is.
To choose between a water fowl or a gaijin ronin, both of which have no guaranteed outcome, which would you choose? Would you even choose?