i think...
ifaylie is crazy.
sometimes i hate it so much that i wish i could just die.
other times i can't get enough.
sometimes life rips me apart choosing to leave me in bits and pieces.
other times it's a swimming pool filled with rootbeer.
i was watching the national geographic channel the other day, and it strangely enough, it was about this ugly asian boy named jeffrey yu. what are the chances huh?
Scenario 1: this herd of elephants had to stay near a watering hole because it was the only one in the area. either they stay at the hole or they die of thirst. naturally the stayed at the watering hole. the only problem was this pride of lions maybe 20+ that just focused on butchering these 'phants whenever they pleased. life sucks doesn't it? needless to say a lot of baby elephants died.
Scenario2: these balooga whales had to stay near this hole in the ice to breathe because all the ice around them had frozen up. they could not swim to the next hole because it was too far and they would choke to death under the water without sufficient air. staying at this hole was not a choice, it was a matter of survival. however, the polar bears got their scent and came to attack. the whales began dying. again, when life throws you a bad hand, it really throws you a bad hand.
the thing is, it's not like the elephants decided to get stuck at the watering hole or the whales chose to get stuck with that patch of ice. it wasn't a choice, it just happened.
the beauty with animals is that they can't really complain, they just deal and go on, there are no what ifs, buts, maybies yada yada yaada...
the thing with long lj posts with lots of words is that nobody ever reads it. at most they skim it. ppl just want to see if there are any pictures. they'll take time to look at those but would rather not sit there reading your thoughts or whatev.
so my house was egged and tp'd the other day. everyone has a theory as to who was behind it...
sure it's a pain to clean up but i think the most disturbing part about it is that now there is solid evidence that you offended someone or someone hates you or both. i don't know every single detail of everyone's lives but i sure don't understand what anyone did wrong in the Yu family. maybe ya'll should leave anonymous comments here or something....
i guess getting your live journal tattered with insults or degrogatory comments is a more abstract version of getting your house egged and tp'd. i mean it's basically the same thing isn't it? anonymous abuse, a pain and embarassment to the victim, a subtle or not so subtle hint that someone hates you...
it's really quite humid and hot here in shanghai. i never hated this place like some people hate it, but it's not that lovable either, downsides include bad air, traffic congestion, low sanitary standards, a city of multiple languages, lots of walking, among other things.
i've never been much of a people person. i hate anything that doesn't come naturally. generating small talk is so painful. wouldn't it be so peaceful if nobody ever talked and everyone used sign language? my ears hurt just thinking about it.
personally i hate taking things the wrong way. sometimes i attempt to assume that people mean a certain thing when they say something because to ME it implies something. normal ppl call this assuming. however, assuming is not totally unwarrented i mean in order to assume something, the other person has to say something to lead to your assumption right? i mean you don't just assume out of the blue, there are footprints leading up to the assumption. my point is, assumptions are totally bad.
but then they are bad because you could be following the wrong footprints or even worse those footprints might not even be there. that will give the person explaining stuff a real headache.
anyways, to ppl like willy pham (i thought it was pham. why did someone say phan? am i wroong?), bt, jonathan huang i need someone to play tennis with. i have improved, i don't hit it over the fence everytime now. just once in a while i get out of control.
lastly, the only person i can really depend on (not counting God) is myself. i don't wanna speak for other people because people will think, oh man my friends are the best, i love my friends, they are 1 in a million etc etc. especially around this time of the year and good for you. i'm glad for you but i think that the only person i can count on in a tough jam is me. i don't expect anyone to take any bullets for me, i don't anyone to pick me up in a tough jam. i'm not gonna set myself up for disappointment. family is great, it really is but i've seen families break apart due to money, greed, stubborness, the usual evils. i remember when i was in high school i felt like some of my good friends were like my brothers and we'd do anything for each other...whatever. that's not how life works.
anyhow, take it with a grain of salt but don't expect anyone to watch your back...because friends stab friends, lovers break up, puppies die and there are deformed kids that look like aliens.
sometimes i hate it so much that i wish i could just die.
other times i can't get enough.
sometimes life rips me apart choosing to leave me in bits and pieces.
other times it's a swimming pool filled with rootbeer.
i was watching the national geographic channel the other day, and it strangely enough, it was about this ugly asian boy named jeffrey yu. what are the chances huh?
Scenario 1: this herd of elephants had to stay near a watering hole because it was the only one in the area. either they stay at the hole or they die of thirst. naturally the stayed at the watering hole. the only problem was this pride of lions maybe 20+ that just focused on butchering these 'phants whenever they pleased. life sucks doesn't it? needless to say a lot of baby elephants died.
Scenario2: these balooga whales had to stay near this hole in the ice to breathe because all the ice around them had frozen up. they could not swim to the next hole because it was too far and they would choke to death under the water without sufficient air. staying at this hole was not a choice, it was a matter of survival. however, the polar bears got their scent and came to attack. the whales began dying. again, when life throws you a bad hand, it really throws you a bad hand.
the thing is, it's not like the elephants decided to get stuck at the watering hole or the whales chose to get stuck with that patch of ice. it wasn't a choice, it just happened.
the beauty with animals is that they can't really complain, they just deal and go on, there are no what ifs, buts, maybies yada yada yaada...
the thing with long lj posts with lots of words is that nobody ever reads it. at most they skim it. ppl just want to see if there are any pictures. they'll take time to look at those but would rather not sit there reading your thoughts or whatev.
so my house was egged and tp'd the other day. everyone has a theory as to who was behind it...
sure it's a pain to clean up but i think the most disturbing part about it is that now there is solid evidence that you offended someone or someone hates you or both. i don't know every single detail of everyone's lives but i sure don't understand what anyone did wrong in the Yu family. maybe ya'll should leave anonymous comments here or something....
i guess getting your live journal tattered with insults or degrogatory comments is a more abstract version of getting your house egged and tp'd. i mean it's basically the same thing isn't it? anonymous abuse, a pain and embarassment to the victim, a subtle or not so subtle hint that someone hates you...
it's really quite humid and hot here in shanghai. i never hated this place like some people hate it, but it's not that lovable either, downsides include bad air, traffic congestion, low sanitary standards, a city of multiple languages, lots of walking, among other things.
i've never been much of a people person. i hate anything that doesn't come naturally. generating small talk is so painful. wouldn't it be so peaceful if nobody ever talked and everyone used sign language? my ears hurt just thinking about it.
personally i hate taking things the wrong way. sometimes i attempt to assume that people mean a certain thing when they say something because to ME it implies something. normal ppl call this assuming. however, assuming is not totally unwarrented i mean in order to assume something, the other person has to say something to lead to your assumption right? i mean you don't just assume out of the blue, there are footprints leading up to the assumption. my point is, assumptions are totally bad.
but then they are bad because you could be following the wrong footprints or even worse those footprints might not even be there. that will give the person explaining stuff a real headache.
anyways, to ppl like willy pham (i thought it was pham. why did someone say phan? am i wroong?), bt, jonathan huang i need someone to play tennis with. i have improved, i don't hit it over the fence everytime now. just once in a while i get out of control.
lastly, the only person i can really depend on (not counting God) is myself. i don't wanna speak for other people because people will think, oh man my friends are the best, i love my friends, they are 1 in a million etc etc. especially around this time of the year and good for you. i'm glad for you but i think that the only person i can count on in a tough jam is me. i don't expect anyone to take any bullets for me, i don't anyone to pick me up in a tough jam. i'm not gonna set myself up for disappointment. family is great, it really is but i've seen families break apart due to money, greed, stubborness, the usual evils. i remember when i was in high school i felt like some of my good friends were like my brothers and we'd do anything for each other...whatever. that's not how life works.
anyhow, take it with a grain of salt but don't expect anyone to watch your back...because friends stab friends, lovers break up, puppies die and there are deformed kids that look like aliens.