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HIsashiburi!
Well, yes a lot of stuff have happened. I’m back here no permanent job yet again. No drama, though. Well, of course there is, but it’s both partly my own fault, I think, and yeah, half serious stuff.
So, life update.
Last March, I was really, REALLY down - literally, and figuratively. My previous illness came back in full force and for three weeks or so, I was just a lethargic, sickly mess. Really, yucky, abnormal menstrual cycle. Profuse bleeding all over the place and, to add more insult to injury, emotionally instable because of all that hormonal shit. It got to the point where I lost too much blood and had to get blood transfusion - which is kinda funny when you think about the why- and spend some time at the hospital. It ain’t funny being anemic, I have to say. Dizzy spells 24/7, baby. And I had this weird ‘vampire vision’ thing for about two weeks. My eyes would start tearing up like hell whenever there was sunlight. It was the weirdest thing I experienced! I had to stay inside the house with all the windows shut. Plus, I also had trouble looking at things that moved. Especially moving people. Whenever I had to go out, I had to close my eyes just so I wouldn’t get dizzy.
Anyway, I’m feeling loads better now, but still not a 100% well. I’ve got a shitload of meds and one thing I’ve horribly learned is that, yes, girl PAY YOUR FREAKIN’ MEDICAL INSURANCE! Since I never exactly had a more-than-six-months job, I found it too much of a hassle to actually go out and pay for my government health insurance. And now, I’ve definitely learned my lesson. I nearly wiped out my (vacation) savings because of freakin’ hospital bills. So, saying goodbye to my supposed summer Japan trip. Sigh. If only…but hey. No use crying over my stupid laziness now.
Currently went back to doing some freelance work but am hoping to find an actual job. Soon, I hope. I’m dead tired of living from paycheck to paycheck.
(Funny thing is, I’m not as bitter as I was before about not being an actual employee of some sort. Yeah, it’s tough with money matters, but what the hell. I figure I’ll be bound to find something that I really would come to love. Good vibes, good vibes.)