Good Morning, Monday...Ah jeez...
Well I practically dragged in this morning, but I was super on time (all thanks to my special chauffer, Mr. D.)!! Hopefully my damn car will be done from the shop tomorrow! They ordered the wrong paint or something so they had to order the right "special" paint. They better have my car ready by then!
Do you know how hard it is to stay away from sweetening your coffee with sugar?? I do.. I am actually doing it right now. Usually I have the cream and sugar but I tried straight black and I practically spit it out thru my nose, it was that nasty. So I guess I will make it a gradual process...Not gonna let go of the cream til later (hey at least it's Fat free..heh) Why am I avoiding sugar, you ask? Well I am on a quest to lose weight bec I have been feeling pretty depressed abt gaining weight when Danny's parent's were here! So, I am on that controversial Atkins Diet the one where you take in more protein and avoid carbs. I don't think I am much of a meat eater so it will actually disgust me and make me throw up if I eat too much of it. Eh.. dunno how I am going to do.
I actually went on a very similar diet shortly after I had broken up with this one schmuck (shortly before I met Danny) and I lost 30 lbs! I drank grapefruit juice or ate a grapefruit after every meal. I actually still didn't feel too good abt myself but now when I look back, I actually looked cute.. Now I just just disgustingly gross and very very unattractive! Then I met Danny and when he and I finally moved in together...that is when I gained weight, hey so did he! I guess it also doesn't help that after I had Molly now there is extra skin... Okay maybe I don't wanna gross anyone out! So basically I am gonna try my best to lose weight whatever way I could...*crossing fingers*
Well... this weekend was a bit uneventful. The whole "date nite" didn't happen. Friday I had such lack of sleep that I think that I would of just fell asleep in the food that I would of ordered that nite, it also didn't help that I was as cranky as I was. So we moved it to Saturday...Molly ended up being sick and was coughing and sneezing pretty bad...Poor baby! So we postponed it for next week...*sigh*
Danny did something incredibly romantic the other nite though...Friday nite when it was supposed to be our date nite. Well after Molly went to sleep, he threw in my one of the rooms and told me not to get out til he was ready. I sat there and watched some T.V. he dragged me out to the living room and all the lights were out, except for one candle that sat in the middle of the table. He had silly Italian music playing thru the T.V., there were flowers on the table(silk ones because he says that I always manage to kill the flowers he gives me pretty quick..heh) There was also food on the table... Carabbas! Yay! I actually teared up because I was happy that he had thought of something on his own! I knew that part of him was still there! He had just been so preoccupied with so much. It was a sweet night. He was too worried that I didn't like it. in fact I didn't... I LOVED IT! I was actually more tired than anything. But all that he did was all worth it and was wonderful!
I actually just got an email from Danny that Sophia from RBJ wrote him. I feel bad actually that she worried about something that she shouldn't have been. Sophia!!First off.. I didn't know that you read my online journal! Thank you! YAY! Don't ya worry, girl! It wasn't about anything that you thought! Honestly! I feel bad that if it came across as that. =0( Everything's all good!!
Hmm... I really need to get myself an audience. From what I wrote in my past entries I sound like some kind of whiny bitch. What can I say?? I was severely under stress! I am all good now. YAY! I have a few ppl read me every now and then but I dunno...part of me wants to make my journal more known to the public and part of me doesn't. Danny told me something interesting. He told me that I curse way too much on here and that maybe if I were to tone it down a bit that it would be more meaningful??? Does that make any sense? I mean I thought that a journal is something that you write because you want to write down your feelings and sentiments.etc.? I have a really bad sailor mouth, I admit that. It actually surprises a lot of ppl bec they don't expect that of me and it's not very "lady like"...Who the fuck cares though?! Should I have tocensor a lot of I feel is part of who I am? Does it really take away a lot of my writing and what I am trying to convey? Maybe I should just work on using profanity less as opposed to cutting it off totally? Things to ponder about, I guess...Actually I think I did pretty good with this entry!! I think I may have curse like one or twice. Funny.. I should have some kind of curse o meter per entry..HAHA! That would be funny.
I keep telling myself that I will put up some interesting stuff on here... just never have the chance. Oh well I guess it will happen eventually...
Anyhoo..This is Joc signing out...Peace!!
Do you know how hard it is to stay away from sweetening your coffee with sugar?? I do.. I am actually doing it right now. Usually I have the cream and sugar but I tried straight black and I practically spit it out thru my nose, it was that nasty. So I guess I will make it a gradual process...Not gonna let go of the cream til later (hey at least it's Fat free..heh) Why am I avoiding sugar, you ask? Well I am on a quest to lose weight bec I have been feeling pretty depressed abt gaining weight when Danny's parent's were here! So, I am on that controversial Atkins Diet the one where you take in more protein and avoid carbs. I don't think I am much of a meat eater so it will actually disgust me and make me throw up if I eat too much of it. Eh.. dunno how I am going to do.
I actually went on a very similar diet shortly after I had broken up with this one schmuck (shortly before I met Danny) and I lost 30 lbs! I drank grapefruit juice or ate a grapefruit after every meal. I actually still didn't feel too good abt myself but now when I look back, I actually looked cute.. Now I just just disgustingly gross and very very unattractive! Then I met Danny and when he and I finally moved in together...that is when I gained weight, hey so did he! I guess it also doesn't help that after I had Molly now there is extra skin... Okay maybe I don't wanna gross anyone out! So basically I am gonna try my best to lose weight whatever way I could...*crossing fingers*
Well... this weekend was a bit uneventful. The whole "date nite" didn't happen. Friday I had such lack of sleep that I think that I would of just fell asleep in the food that I would of ordered that nite, it also didn't help that I was as cranky as I was. So we moved it to Saturday...Molly ended up being sick and was coughing and sneezing pretty bad...Poor baby! So we postponed it for next week...*sigh*
Danny did something incredibly romantic the other nite though...Friday nite when it was supposed to be our date nite. Well after Molly went to sleep, he threw in my one of the rooms and told me not to get out til he was ready. I sat there and watched some T.V. he dragged me out to the living room and all the lights were out, except for one candle that sat in the middle of the table. He had silly Italian music playing thru the T.V., there were flowers on the table(silk ones because he says that I always manage to kill the flowers he gives me pretty quick..heh) There was also food on the table... Carabbas! Yay! I actually teared up because I was happy that he had thought of something on his own! I knew that part of him was still there! He had just been so preoccupied with so much. It was a sweet night. He was too worried that I didn't like it. in fact I didn't... I LOVED IT! I was actually more tired than anything. But all that he did was all worth it and was wonderful!
I actually just got an email from Danny that Sophia from RBJ wrote him. I feel bad actually that she worried about something that she shouldn't have been. Sophia!!First off.. I didn't know that you read my online journal! Thank you! YAY! Don't ya worry, girl! It wasn't about anything that you thought! Honestly! I feel bad that if it came across as that. =0( Everything's all good!!
Hmm... I really need to get myself an audience. From what I wrote in my past entries I sound like some kind of whiny bitch. What can I say?? I was severely under stress! I am all good now. YAY! I have a few ppl read me every now and then but I dunno...part of me wants to make my journal more known to the public and part of me doesn't. Danny told me something interesting. He told me that I curse way too much on here and that maybe if I were to tone it down a bit that it would be more meaningful??? Does that make any sense? I mean I thought that a journal is something that you write because you want to write down your feelings and sentiments.etc.? I have a really bad sailor mouth, I admit that. It actually surprises a lot of ppl bec they don't expect that of me and it's not very "lady like"...Who the fuck cares though?! Should I have tocensor a lot of I feel is part of who I am? Does it really take away a lot of my writing and what I am trying to convey? Maybe I should just work on using profanity less as opposed to cutting it off totally? Things to ponder about, I guess...Actually I think I did pretty good with this entry!! I think I may have curse like one or twice. Funny.. I should have some kind of curse o meter per entry..HAHA! That would be funny.
I keep telling myself that I will put up some interesting stuff on here... just never have the chance. Oh well I guess it will happen eventually...
Anyhoo..This is Joc signing out...Peace!!