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not again
today i felt it. it hit me hard. like a brick to the chest. the feeling that i get every so often. the feeling of not being loved. its the worst in the world folks, let me tell ya. unless uve had this feeling there is no way u can grasp what i am going through. nobody loves me, and it hurts. i need love. love makes the world go round.
yet love is crap. am i too young to know what love is? does anybody know what love is?
i guess what it boils down to is how badly i need someone in my life. a girl who i can talk to when im feeling down. a girl who i can hold when i need affection.
like p diddy, i need a gurl. any takers???
this is an issue thats always bothered me, my lack of skillz with women. its like a rusty nail thats lodged in your foot. if you address the nail and try to get it out, yea, its gonna hurt, and its gonna be difficult. but its better to addess the problem then leave the fuckin nail in ur foot!!!
and this is one helluva nail.
once again, when feeling down, i look at myself. i try to think "whats wrong with me" "why cant i be like that guy, why am i who i am". And this is where my ego gets the best of me. i think im the coolest cat in the world = ) so why doesnt everyone else see it.
ugh, thinking. i hate it. i wish i was a blank slate. a fuckin retard. something. anything that doesnt have to think. i hate thoughts. my brain swirls with images,thoughts, anything and everything imaginable. why cant it just be empty? i want a hollow mind. i dont want to deal with lifes crap.
just thinking about women, man. theres so many beautiful women out there. i think our school is a jackpot of good looking girls. but here i am. little old me. ive got the girls on MY mind, but im not in THEIR minds.
now how do i change that...
today i felt it. it hit me hard. like a brick to the chest. the feeling that i get every so often. the feeling of not being loved. its the worst in the world folks, let me tell ya. unless uve had this feeling there is no way u can grasp what i am going through. nobody loves me, and it hurts. i need love. love makes the world go round.
yet love is crap. am i too young to know what love is? does anybody know what love is?
i guess what it boils down to is how badly i need someone in my life. a girl who i can talk to when im feeling down. a girl who i can hold when i need affection.
like p diddy, i need a gurl. any takers???
this is an issue thats always bothered me, my lack of skillz with women. its like a rusty nail thats lodged in your foot. if you address the nail and try to get it out, yea, its gonna hurt, and its gonna be difficult. but its better to addess the problem then leave the fuckin nail in ur foot!!!
and this is one helluva nail.
once again, when feeling down, i look at myself. i try to think "whats wrong with me" "why cant i be like that guy, why am i who i am". And this is where my ego gets the best of me. i think im the coolest cat in the world = ) so why doesnt everyone else see it.
ugh, thinking. i hate it. i wish i was a blank slate. a fuckin retard. something. anything that doesnt have to think. i hate thoughts. my brain swirls with images,thoughts, anything and everything imaginable. why cant it just be empty? i want a hollow mind. i dont want to deal with lifes crap.
just thinking about women, man. theres so many beautiful women out there. i think our school is a jackpot of good looking girls. but here i am. little old me. ive got the girls on MY mind, but im not in THEIR minds.
now how do i change that...