Did the Backstreet Boys die?
I've been thinking alot lately. my emotions have been going up and down like a rollercoaster. One day im happy, the next im sad. one MINUTE im happy, and the VERY NEXT minute i get so sad...what the fuck is that man. Now, i dont know alot. I dont pretend to know alot. So thats why im confused. Does everyone go through life with these "rollercoaster" emotions. It CANT be just me. Yet, when I look to the "outside world", meaning not inside myself, i see one of 2 things. a person who seems to always be happy, or a person who always seems to be sad.
But the more i think, its nearly impossible to always be happy, and by the same token, always be sad...right? I mean, im sure the happiest person in the world wasnt all smiles 9/11/01. And to the people that seem constantly sad, there has to be something that makes them smile, like a funny movie or somethin. hahaha. i dont know what im talking about. anywayz, it just feels like MY life has the biggest ups and downs within the shortest amount of time. If ur reading this, PLEASE answer me back, and let me know how UR lifes emotions are.
this whole "emotional thinking" has now left me wondering, "ok jay, what makes u happy, and what makes u sad". now THAT is a good question. i really, truly, dont know why, when i should be happy, i feel like crap, and when i should be feeling like crap i "put on a happy face". u know what, im acting really gay right now with all my " ". So i dont think ill delve deeper into my psyche....right now. but i will later, cause im getting bored of writing about my day. thats boring. why do u care if i played basketball, or went to the movies. u may be able to relate with me on this one.....or, im jus an extremely strange, fucked up kid, which, in that case, ill go....aw fuck it im rambling. yep, im rambling. goddamnit i hate it when i ramble
But the more i think, its nearly impossible to always be happy, and by the same token, always be sad...right? I mean, im sure the happiest person in the world wasnt all smiles 9/11/01. And to the people that seem constantly sad, there has to be something that makes them smile, like a funny movie or somethin. hahaha. i dont know what im talking about. anywayz, it just feels like MY life has the biggest ups and downs within the shortest amount of time. If ur reading this, PLEASE answer me back, and let me know how UR lifes emotions are.
this whole "emotional thinking" has now left me wondering, "ok jay, what makes u happy, and what makes u sad". now THAT is a good question. i really, truly, dont know why, when i should be happy, i feel like crap, and when i should be feeling like crap i "put on a happy face". u know what, im acting really gay right now with all my " ". So i dont think ill delve deeper into my psyche....right now. but i will later, cause im getting bored of writing about my day. thats boring. why do u care if i played basketball, or went to the movies. u may be able to relate with me on this one.....or, im jus an extremely strange, fucked up kid, which, in that case, ill go....aw fuck it im rambling. yep, im rambling. goddamnit i hate it when i ramble