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Decided (out of boredom) to start writing in this "thing" again
Even though my words mean nothing and it really is just a waste of time, but i've got the time to waste.
So anyway
Lately i've been in this misserible state of mind, but i dont show it cause no one wants to put up with it, but i guess i'll vent because it's not like by keeping it all in i'm being surrounded by people who want to be around me and enjoy my presense. You see i usually just try to be happ because its much more appealing then being depressed and emotional but in relality i have no one either way, if i fake it or not, so here i ammmm letting the world know,
>>IM FALLING APART<<<
I just feel so alone
I mean i am really the only person that cares really is David, and i mean i appreciate it but its hard expecially cause now that we arent together i'm so alone so i find myself still going to him for comfort, and its not fair to him.
I don't know
ToDaY my day went lyk this
Woke up
Had to drive at 10:00 for D.E.
then came home showered
called ryan, (he never called back but why should he)
took a nap
Got dressed and did my make up
and went to the mall and out to eat with (my only friend) david
Came home and changed into my jammies
maybe going to my brothers house later
believe it or not thats the most exciting day i've had in awhile, i'm pathetic i know :-/
guess i'm done writing
.......
Even though my words mean nothing and it really is just a waste of time, but i've got the time to waste.
So anyway
Lately i've been in this misserible state of mind, but i dont show it cause no one wants to put up with it, but i guess i'll vent because it's not like by keeping it all in i'm being surrounded by people who want to be around me and enjoy my presense. You see i usually just try to be happ because its much more appealing then being depressed and emotional but in relality i have no one either way, if i fake it or not, so here i ammmm letting the world know,
>>IM FALLING APART<<<
I just feel so alone
I mean i am really the only person that cares really is David, and i mean i appreciate it but its hard expecially cause now that we arent together i'm so alone so i find myself still going to him for comfort, and its not fair to him.
I don't know
ToDaY my day went lyk this
Woke up
Had to drive at 10:00 for D.E.
then came home showered
called ryan, (he never called back but why should he)
took a nap
Got dressed and did my make up
and went to the mall and out to eat with (my only friend) david
Came home and changed into my jammies
maybe going to my brothers house later
believe it or not thats the most exciting day i've had in awhile, i'm pathetic i know :-/
guess i'm done writing
.......