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Yesterday twas quite a day... we went to see Ancorman and that was funny. I love going to movies... i/we always sit at the back and watch the preview... i either anouce or just make stupid comments as loud as physically possible without actually yelling... well first i went to pick up Vince... hes thinking about joining the military... so he had to take this pretest... verbal mathmatical skills kinda thing... hes trying to convince me to go to.... into the army that is... and he wanted me to take the test too so i did... waste of my time but eh.... before hand i asked what was the highest possible... a 99... i didnt really read everything... didnt do anywork... got a 93. haha i guess that says something about the armed forces... (probaly asking yourself why the hell would corbin go into the army... 50k tax free for college) technically the military cant talk to me because im 16 but eh... so to sargent asked me what i would want to do... so i said communications non com... lol he said how bout sattilite communications.... haha.. fun fun.... i just took the test to shut vince up... he wanted me to lose to him on this... haha like thats gunna happen... toby just got his license and i made fun of him because he drives like a old lady... im pretty sure i was going 80 up 112th... but i can drive when im focused so no worries... haha kicked it at vinces... stayed up till 6 am watching tv it was sweet.... then i got up at damn 10 am.... ugh today was a day like always nothing real special... im getting worried about my dad again... he diabetic and he goes through spells where he has bad problems then the slow down... more like cycles... he had a reaction tonight bout 7...its a hard thing to deal with sometimes but i have been dealing with it essentually all my life... didnt start getting bad till i was about 10... my brother became a diabetic at 17 so im still at risk... but i wont let it happen to me even thoughs it genetic fuck that... Im tougher than i look... yup about 10 everything shifted fromplayful nieve me to a much more serious me... i just gotta deal... thats it step up and except things as they are simply because i cant change things... haha sometimes me and my dad have interesting conversations when hes pulling out of a reaction... see over time i have been able to deal with the reactions instead of calling an ambulance...and sence my bro isnt around anymore i try to deal withit on my own... my mom doesnt take it very well... she doesnt exactly keep a cool head in these situations... sometimes i dont either and thats why there is a hole in my wall... punching things is not a good way to vent its better to talk but... its hard to describe what happens in a reaction... well i think that higher brain functions are the first thing to shut down after blood sugar reaches around 60... so sometimes its like dealing with a 4 year old...sometimes hes just unreponsive...sometimes there are convulsions... its deffinetly a bad bad disese... but thats what made me grow up and thats what shifted my priorities and my point of view... thats about all i truly worry about anymore.... its a very scary thing when all you come home to is an anwsering machine message saying we are at the hospital... first time i heard that i burst into tears... thats the only thing that really scares me and the thing i dont know how to deal with.... i really dont know what i would do if i lost my dad... i was never afraid of dieing but afraid of giving a eulogy........ and to think this started out on one of those how was your day kinda thing