update

[jay_nine]

Well, things have been really good. I started going to the gym yesterday and already feel good about that and determined to make this a daily thing. An hour a day. I can do that. I need to lose about 10 pounds before the summer. I have plenty of time to do that too. Things with John have improved immensly. We are better on our communication which of course makes for a great relationship. I was starting to stop doing things cuz John didn't approve but then felt like I was starting to lose myself. SO... things I felt strongly about I am continueing to do. He is actually dealing and probably respecting me for it for standing my ground cuz he hasn't bitched. Next week is 7 months for us. We still bring up the occasional marriage talk but I'm think way too early for that. I think it's because of our age that it's like brought up so soon. I really see it with him, but would be more comfortable with it knowing that we are still learning and growing.

So, I've decided to eat healthy, gyming it and to look for a job. Yes, folks you heard correctly, time to get back to the working force. I applied to Raymour & Flanigan. I hope they call me. It's back to what I know... customer service and furniture. I know that won't fulfill me as much as theatre, but I need a paycheck and better working ethic. I plan on looking for a show also. I miss being on stage. I would LOVE to do A Chorus Line again, but since I think it's on broadway that won't happen any time soon. Ah well. We shall see.

Well, back to the grind.