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So, Danielle, my roommate got engaged Saturday. So, with that she plans on moving out Feb. 1st. Luckily I talked my brother into moving in. So there goes that. I'm hardly there and it's a big place so don't see any problems. I spoke to John about it first and was hoping he wouldn't ask me to move in since 1. I'm not ready and 2. don't want to move in out of convienence. BUT when he didn't offer, kinda bummed me out for a whole 2 seconds. I'm over it. I think he's exactly where I'm at. I love him, but that is a HUGE commitment. I still would like to get more comfortable with him and just talk more with him about.. well, anything. Things have been really great with us but with me it's either one feeling or the other and I always question myself. I can feel all these intense feelings for him, the next day be like am I sure I want to be with him? I'm trying to just go with the flow and not think too much. He really is a great guy. There are stuff that turn me off about him but it seems the more we talk he knows this and explains it. He did say to me that he didn't want kids and that could be a problem. I'm up in the air about it but once he said that I'm like I still would like the option. I told him to figure it out because we shouldn't waste time with each other since I'm on the side of wanting one. 32... I would like one kid by 35. That's the plan anyway. So scary to think of though. I've been a wreck on the roads lately. It's like I'm really being tested on my patience and failing miserably. So I think I need a few days of NOT driving, a non driving vaca if you will and then get back on there and just chill!
Almost done xmas shopping, just mom, my sis and my bro's neice. I'm so friggin poor too. Danielle and I are having a cookies and wine get together and I got stockings for everyone. $60 later. I know they'll appreciate it and that's why I did it but I'm so stupid in just going in there and not thinking about how much to spend. I'm looking forward to xmas eve in NJ with my family and John. It should be really nice!
Almost done xmas shopping, just mom, my sis and my bro's neice. I'm so friggin poor too. Danielle and I are having a cookies and wine get together and I got stockings for everyone. $60 later. I know they'll appreciate it and that's why I did it but I'm so stupid in just going in there and not thinking about how much to spend. I'm looking forward to xmas eve in NJ with my family and John. It should be really nice!