Ok, I think there may be something wrong with me....
Yesterday I was so goo goo over John. Today? Not so much. I haven't the faintest idea what changed it, but I know eventually it will change back because that's how it's been with him. I hung out with John Tuesday night and it was great! I was definitely smittened. Last night a bunch of us went to Brickhouse. I was sooo excited to see him. Things were great! Just at some point, no idea where, I just didn't feel the same. I don't even think he did anything either. There are a few little things that irratate me that he does, but it really shouldn't out weigh all the great things. Like I don't know why, but he sways a lot... like if we are standing and kissing, he'll sway. Now some may think that's endearing, but seriously it gets annoying to the point where I try to stop it. And then there is the kissing. Does kissing have to be so noisy? I forgot how it is when I've kissed other guys. It's almost like he's intentionally making these noises. He is a GREAT kisser, but well, it's weird. He says these corny ass statements where some girls would probably swoon, but I'm just not into sappy shit like that. I dunno. Perhaps when we hung out Tuesday we talked more than stare and kiss each other so I got his personality and sense of humor and that is a turn on. I dunno. Last few times we hung out also there was a lot of sexual tension. Location was the issue why it didn't result into anything. Maybe that's just a sign. I keep thinking that if he asked me to be his girl, would I? Yesterday, the answer would be a big fat yes, but today, I'm just not sure. Need more time. I actually thought of Anthony last night. No, I don't miss him. It was more like since he was my only relationship, a comparision. Funny thing is that even with John's little annoyances, he still wins hands down on the 6 year relationship I had with Anthony. Well, I shouldn't discredit John yet, I suppose. I should be thankful he hasn't asked me to be his girl. That could get complicated.
Well, so much to do today and I HAVE to put in some sleep time. I didn't get in until about 2am last night. Thank god I did all the dishes already (I cooked for my family last night.. 10 people!). So, all I have to do really is take the leaf out of the table, return the 4 folding chairs to Stacey and well, clean the whole apt. One of the bathroom toilets is stuffed up so I have to buy a plunger. I can't get over how much toilet paper I've had to buy in the past week. I just really have to clean my apt and myself before going to do Tommy tonight AND fit in sleep and stopping by Stacey's BBQ. 5 hours? I think it can be done!
Well, so much to do today and I HAVE to put in some sleep time. I didn't get in until about 2am last night. Thank god I did all the dishes already (I cooked for my family last night.. 10 people!). So, all I have to do really is take the leaf out of the table, return the 4 folding chairs to Stacey and well, clean the whole apt. One of the bathroom toilets is stuffed up so I have to buy a plunger. I can't get over how much toilet paper I've had to buy in the past week. I just really have to clean my apt and myself before going to do Tommy tonight AND fit in sleep and stopping by Stacey's BBQ. 5 hours? I think it can be done!