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been a fun and interesting weekend. saturday was the UCM homecoming parade and our GSA, queers and allies, was in the parade. our float was awesome and i think we got a good response, i mean someone said they saw a few odd looks but overall pretty positive. last night greco had a halloween party along with 5 million bday parties with it lol it was fun, i was a beer keg...like i said, it was fun :)
now im just sitting here not looking forward to starting another week, but at the same time i am becausei know that i get to talk to adam cuz its when we find time to talk. Its confusing. he told me that that the person he is with doesnt care like i do. and honestly i think its true. Id give everything for him...and this isnt the first time ive said that. He said "I just feel lost too. I don't know how to think of feel... I also somewhat feel trapped here too" so i dont know where to go with this...honestly i feel hes not with the right person, but i feel like a bad person for saying that, he says hes overprotective and overly jealous and that its his way or no way. thats no way to go in a relationship, sorry but thats just my view. i love this guy, and i want to see his happiness and to be apart of his happiness. I think about him i dont know how MANY times a day, and i cant get him off my mind; its unreal. and now i feel better abut things since my closest friends understand since i didnt think tehy would..they did go behind my back and read a private blog but i dont blame them, they were worried.
other than that just thinking a lot of what im going to do when may comes and our lease is up. I love jamie and lauren but i dont know if i can live with them. I actually dont think its jamie, rather more lauren; i feel shes lazy, unkept and not organized and i am and a lil messy is okay but its getting out of hand. there were dishes that they all used, not me. and she washed a sink full of glasses and some platess maybe, then our friend scott came over and did the rest....wtf is that?! i dont know ill cross that when i get to it.
im out for now.
now im just sitting here not looking forward to starting another week, but at the same time i am becausei know that i get to talk to adam cuz its when we find time to talk. Its confusing. he told me that that the person he is with doesnt care like i do. and honestly i think its true. Id give everything for him...and this isnt the first time ive said that. He said "I just feel lost too. I don't know how to think of feel... I also somewhat feel trapped here too" so i dont know where to go with this...honestly i feel hes not with the right person, but i feel like a bad person for saying that, he says hes overprotective and overly jealous and that its his way or no way. thats no way to go in a relationship, sorry but thats just my view. i love this guy, and i want to see his happiness and to be apart of his happiness. I think about him i dont know how MANY times a day, and i cant get him off my mind; its unreal. and now i feel better abut things since my closest friends understand since i didnt think tehy would..they did go behind my back and read a private blog but i dont blame them, they were worried.
other than that just thinking a lot of what im going to do when may comes and our lease is up. I love jamie and lauren but i dont know if i can live with them. I actually dont think its jamie, rather more lauren; i feel shes lazy, unkept and not organized and i am and a lil messy is okay but its getting out of hand. there were dishes that they all used, not me. and she washed a sink full of glasses and some platess maybe, then our friend scott came over and did the rest....wtf is that?! i dont know ill cross that when i get to it.
im out for now.