Here We Go Again
Okay...I'm preparing myself to come out to my friends tonight...This time it's going to happen.
I'm nervous I'm not gonna lie...
But..I'm kinda not nervous..
It's a really really weird feeling right now.
How did I get here?
Answer: I came out to someone else this week.
Just yesterday. It was weird. Because he just straight up asked me... It wasn't that awkward because he's one of the people I made friends with over the semester...I thought he was totally gay, which as it turns out isn't that far...
Him: Okay so I have like a really serious question to ask you.
Me: Okay shoot.
Him: I hope you don't think I'm being rude or something, but I was just wondering..Are you gay?
Me:(Instantly with no pause) Yep.
Him: Oh okay cool, it's not like I can say shit, I'm bi...
It just kind of shocked me a little bit on the inside how I didn't care at all how he would react by me telling him. I'm super/uber shy. I'm not that out going in places where I don't know people. So it's not like I'm social by any means at school. In other words it's not like I'm going around waving a rainbow flag, quoting Melissa Ethridge lyrics, and wearing a hell of a lot a plaid. I'm just the quiet girl who stays in the library. I keep to myself. I'm very private when it comes to telling people anything about me if I don't really know them.
So now in retrospect I guess I wasn't so much as shocked that I just blurted out,"Yep". It's just that I'm shocked I knocked down that wall that I've had up for forever.
Hmm. I guess the wrecking ball finally arrived in my life and I'm welcoming it with open arms.
I'm nervous I'm not gonna lie...
But..I'm kinda not nervous..
It's a really really weird feeling right now.
How did I get here?
Answer: I came out to someone else this week.
Just yesterday. It was weird. Because he just straight up asked me... It wasn't that awkward because he's one of the people I made friends with over the semester...I thought he was totally gay, which as it turns out isn't that far...
Him: Okay so I have like a really serious question to ask you.
Me: Okay shoot.
Him: I hope you don't think I'm being rude or something, but I was just wondering..Are you gay?
Me:(Instantly with no pause) Yep.
Him: Oh okay cool, it's not like I can say shit, I'm bi...
It just kind of shocked me a little bit on the inside how I didn't care at all how he would react by me telling him. I'm super/uber shy. I'm not that out going in places where I don't know people. So it's not like I'm social by any means at school. In other words it's not like I'm going around waving a rainbow flag, quoting Melissa Ethridge lyrics, and wearing a hell of a lot a plaid. I'm just the quiet girl who stays in the library. I keep to myself. I'm very private when it comes to telling people anything about me if I don't really know them.
So now in retrospect I guess I wasn't so much as shocked that I just blurted out,"Yep". It's just that I'm shocked I knocked down that wall that I've had up for forever.
Hmm. I guess the wrecking ball finally arrived in my life and I'm welcoming it with open arms.