Update on Life
Good: Best friend came back. She apologized. Said she was just having a hard time dealing with all of the gay stuff. She didn't know what to say to help me yada yada yada.
Bad: There's no fucking way I'm going to pass one of my classes. I've tried and worked my ass of since January and still I'm failing. I've been going for help after class, outside of class, going to the tutor, doing the homework. Yet I managed to fail yet ANOTHER fucking test. Just seriouslt FML at this point. Passing this class was crucial for me as far as getting the hell out of this state/ my home/ this hell hole of a life I'm living here. Just seriously, I can't stress enough as to how important it was for me to pass this damn class. I dropped my favorite class so that I could work on this class and another. The other class is coming along and I'm sure I'm going to pass. This class though is killing me. I'm going to fail it and that of course means another year in this shit hole.
Good: I've come out to another friend. He's also gay so it wasn't that big of a deal, but it was a big deal to me. I just feel like the more people know the easier it's going to be. He came out to his parents a few years ago and he said he was going to tell me all about it and help me come up with a way to tell my parents. Which is going to be fun because I love this boy. We're going to have a "date" and just talk about our own gayness lol. Which is going to be pretty damn funny because I've already shared with him the time I married myself to the one doll I owned and he in return shared his story of dressing up as Cat Woman when he was five. So it should be great/relaxing/just what I need at a time like this. Can't wait.
Between: I've changed my major yet again. I'm really excited about it this time. But this also means I'm going to have to figure out exactly where and what I should do all over again to get this major. I don't know much about it, but I do know that it takes all my strengths and puts them into good uses while also working on my weaknesses a little at a time.
Between: My relationship with my mother. She did the silence for a day thing with me. But then she started asking too many questions that really didn't relate to the topic of the day at all. Then she forgot halfway through the day and said, "Oh well not that important." Kinda sucks that she doesn't care about it, but then it's partially my fault cause I couldn't stress or tell her enough as to tell her why it was important. I'm still confused as to where she stand on the whole GLBT topic in general cause she's really contradicting and hard to figure out. Example: She loves Rupaul. Like with a passion. She said that the government shouldn't have allowed Prop 8 to pass because politically speaking you shouldn't mix religion and state. She's also just a big a fan of RENT as I am. But then...She also says things like "Gross" or "Ew" when we were watching Grey's Anatomy, and Callie and Erica were kissing and then she frowned when Callie and Arizona were dancing. So I don't know where she is with all this stuff and it's kinda confusing and stressful at the same time.
Sigh...hopefully tomorrrow will be a better day.
Bad: There's no fucking way I'm going to pass one of my classes. I've tried and worked my ass of since January and still I'm failing. I've been going for help after class, outside of class, going to the tutor, doing the homework. Yet I managed to fail yet ANOTHER fucking test. Just seriouslt FML at this point. Passing this class was crucial for me as far as getting the hell out of this state/ my home/ this hell hole of a life I'm living here. Just seriously, I can't stress enough as to how important it was for me to pass this damn class. I dropped my favorite class so that I could work on this class and another. The other class is coming along and I'm sure I'm going to pass. This class though is killing me. I'm going to fail it and that of course means another year in this shit hole.
Good: I've come out to another friend. He's also gay so it wasn't that big of a deal, but it was a big deal to me. I just feel like the more people know the easier it's going to be. He came out to his parents a few years ago and he said he was going to tell me all about it and help me come up with a way to tell my parents. Which is going to be fun because I love this boy. We're going to have a "date" and just talk about our own gayness lol. Which is going to be pretty damn funny because I've already shared with him the time I married myself to the one doll I owned and he in return shared his story of dressing up as Cat Woman when he was five. So it should be great/relaxing/just what I need at a time like this. Can't wait.
Between: I've changed my major yet again. I'm really excited about it this time. But this also means I'm going to have to figure out exactly where and what I should do all over again to get this major. I don't know much about it, but I do know that it takes all my strengths and puts them into good uses while also working on my weaknesses a little at a time.
Between: My relationship with my mother. She did the silence for a day thing with me. But then she started asking too many questions that really didn't relate to the topic of the day at all. Then she forgot halfway through the day and said, "Oh well not that important." Kinda sucks that she doesn't care about it, but then it's partially my fault cause I couldn't stress or tell her enough as to tell her why it was important. I'm still confused as to where she stand on the whole GLBT topic in general cause she's really contradicting and hard to figure out. Example: She loves Rupaul. Like with a passion. She said that the government shouldn't have allowed Prop 8 to pass because politically speaking you shouldn't mix religion and state. She's also just a big a fan of RENT as I am. But then...She also says things like "Gross" or "Ew" when we were watching Grey's Anatomy, and Callie and Erica were kissing and then she frowned when Callie and Arizona were dancing. So I don't know where she is with all this stuff and it's kinda confusing and stressful at the same time.
Sigh...hopefully tomorrrow will be a better day.