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I think that any place can feel like home when its raining this hard. My room is so clean right now and the music im listening to is so good. Incredible things have been happening this week and all of a sudden i'm glad i'm in austin.
I'm not sure why I'm up playing on the internet right now when I've got so much to do! so much to do and an 8:00 class in the morning. obviously im addicted.
Tonight im thinking about alot of things. Mostly about next semester and the one after and so on. Im kind of sad that im leaving the fine arts school after how excited I was about it in the fall. I'm not really sure what I dont like about my studio classes. The projects are all flexible and of course creativity is encouraged. I dont know why i cant let myself take advantage of that? All of my projects from the beginning of the semester are much better than the ones from now. Its supposed to be the opposite, I guess. But instead of getting more comforatable with things and growing, I just start off excited and then get shy and small. Which pretty much applies to all other things in my life.
I still like drawing alot. I like it when im writing bullshit things in a lined spiral notebook and then the tail of my y turns into a horse with indians or something. and then it goes back to writing again. God i love spiral notebooks. why dont i marry them? well, I'm planning on it. I've got about 500 million billion spiral notebooks in my room in clear lake full of dumb things Ive written since third grade. Sometimes I feel like such a traitor when im writing on the internet or drawing on ms paint. because i like to do those things too. I wish I could put my computer in a notebook. or, i wish that when i printed things and glued them into notebooks, the hyperlinks would work! same goes for pictures on my computer versus pictures in a photo album. All im saying is that all of my things are split into two places and if there is one thing i hate, its when things are split up in two places. i mean, the other thing i am saying is: I wonder if i'll ever be satisfied with having everything on a computer?
uhhhhh
Bridget
I'm not sure why I'm up playing on the internet right now when I've got so much to do! so much to do and an 8:00 class in the morning. obviously im addicted.
Tonight im thinking about alot of things. Mostly about next semester and the one after and so on. Im kind of sad that im leaving the fine arts school after how excited I was about it in the fall. I'm not really sure what I dont like about my studio classes. The projects are all flexible and of course creativity is encouraged. I dont know why i cant let myself take advantage of that? All of my projects from the beginning of the semester are much better than the ones from now. Its supposed to be the opposite, I guess. But instead of getting more comforatable with things and growing, I just start off excited and then get shy and small. Which pretty much applies to all other things in my life.
I still like drawing alot. I like it when im writing bullshit things in a lined spiral notebook and then the tail of my y turns into a horse with indians or something. and then it goes back to writing again. God i love spiral notebooks. why dont i marry them? well, I'm planning on it. I've got about 500 million billion spiral notebooks in my room in clear lake full of dumb things Ive written since third grade. Sometimes I feel like such a traitor when im writing on the internet or drawing on ms paint. because i like to do those things too. I wish I could put my computer in a notebook. or, i wish that when i printed things and glued them into notebooks, the hyperlinks would work! same goes for pictures on my computer versus pictures in a photo album. All im saying is that all of my things are split into two places and if there is one thing i hate, its when things are split up in two places. i mean, the other thing i am saying is: I wonder if i'll ever be satisfied with having everything on a computer?
uhhhhh
Bridget