Misplaced

[jaxtheenigma]

oh man I had the wicked thought recently that I was really glad my son didn't make it. looking at how things progressed, I think I'd hate to be tied down to his father in any way. and then I remembered that at the time, I had already made the decision that he was never going to know about Austin. He would be two and living his little baby life, and his father would be none the wiser if not for the f3cking nudges of family. ugh. if only I had listened to my gut to begin with.

I do regret losing him. I just see it more as me being saved the stress and drama of being associated forever with his father. I'm really. really. glad that isn't a thing.