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..I haven't written in here in awhile. I haven't heard word one from Chris in about 2-3 weeks..I hope he's not dead, but then again, I hope he is. I've thought from time to time about calling his cell phone but whats the point right? heh..if he even picks up it'll just make things worse, if it can get much worse. I don't even know what I would say to him anyways...it's kind of pointless to even think about it I guess heh.
Matt stayed over last weekend and it was..just..awesome =) We didn't sleep much because he felt sick and I wouldn't go to sleep unless he was sleeping so it was a viscious circle heh but finally we fell asleep for a couple hours and the rest of the time was just talking and holding and "such". He's on a break with his girlfriend right now..which i can't decide if thats good or bad right now. He said "I'll let whatever happens happen" but I have no idea what thats supposed to mean. So, who knows if we're gonna end up together...he's supposed to move in with her this year and I don't know if thats still what he's considering. I'm just gonna go with the confusion now. I don't really care what happens anymore because it all goes to shit in the end anyways so why be concerned?..theres no real reason to be so caught up in something thats just gonna let you down.
Carve your name into my arm instead of stressed I lie here charmed.
I'm thinking of cutting all of my hair off again like it used to be...I know I waited a long time for my hair to grow but whatever..its just hair, it'll grow again if I want it to and I miss spiking my hair and gelling it and all that jazz. I miss grade 8.
I plan on writing something to some people and I'm going to put the rest of my pictures up this week so my wall is covered. Today my mind was just filled with thoughts and memories and I know I'm gonna miss summer in Newmarket. heh I was thinking about the little things that I haven't really thought about...like going to Quebec with my mom to see Jill and just hanging out there for the weekend and going over to the 404 plaza and going over to the Newmarket Plaza to the CD Wharehouse and Value Village HOLY SHIT I miss Value Village soooo freakin much.and the dollar store. and the complex with the pool that we used to have to walk through to get to the mall. I could go on so I'm just gonna shut up, everyone knows what I miss I'm just being dumb and reminding myself over again about it.
I hope this summer...works out somehow.
Peace, Love, Empathy,
JaX
Matt stayed over last weekend and it was..just..awesome =) We didn't sleep much because he felt sick and I wouldn't go to sleep unless he was sleeping so it was a viscious circle heh but finally we fell asleep for a couple hours and the rest of the time was just talking and holding and "such". He's on a break with his girlfriend right now..which i can't decide if thats good or bad right now. He said "I'll let whatever happens happen" but I have no idea what thats supposed to mean. So, who knows if we're gonna end up together...he's supposed to move in with her this year and I don't know if thats still what he's considering. I'm just gonna go with the confusion now. I don't really care what happens anymore because it all goes to shit in the end anyways so why be concerned?..theres no real reason to be so caught up in something thats just gonna let you down.
Carve your name into my arm instead of stressed I lie here charmed.
I'm thinking of cutting all of my hair off again like it used to be...I know I waited a long time for my hair to grow but whatever..its just hair, it'll grow again if I want it to and I miss spiking my hair and gelling it and all that jazz. I miss grade 8.
I plan on writing something to some people and I'm going to put the rest of my pictures up this week so my wall is covered. Today my mind was just filled with thoughts and memories and I know I'm gonna miss summer in Newmarket. heh I was thinking about the little things that I haven't really thought about...like going to Quebec with my mom to see Jill and just hanging out there for the weekend and going over to the 404 plaza and going over to the Newmarket Plaza to the CD Wharehouse and Value Village HOLY SHIT I miss Value Village soooo freakin much.and the dollar store. and the complex with the pool that we used to have to walk through to get to the mall. I could go on so I'm just gonna shut up, everyone knows what I miss I'm just being dumb and reminding myself over again about it.
I hope this summer...works out somehow.
Peace, Love, Empathy,
JaX