Random ramblings
Well I haven't posted in a while so I thought I would.
It seems as if I only post when there is something else I should be doing, in this case its a 6 page paper due monday and 4 journals due tuesday... in addition I'm suposed to have some articles read for my group meeting on monday which I hanven't had a chance to do yet.
I am the queen of procrastination and it seems like the urge to procrastinate has become 10-fold this year, and its the time I especially need to buckle down because I'm in my first year of masters and need to do well. But I think this all stems from the fact that I am SO SICK OF SCHOOL. I often find myself wishing I had have taken the year off and worked/traveled instead of jumping right from my BA into my MA. I mean there are the positive aspects such as I will be done my degree in less then two years now and can get a job much easier.
I am just feeling overwhelmed.
Overwhelmed with the responsability of school... the fact that its a new school... that its a masters program and that this is what I have chosen to do for the rest of my life,
Overwhelmed with the fact that all my freinds are changing, moving on and getting married etc.and things wont be the same again
Overwhelmed with my very new and very very different surroundings.
Uncomfortable because my apartment doesn't feel like home yet.
It just feels as if the walls are closing in on me sometimes and that I need to get out. Its unavoidable but I dont want to wake up and join the real world... I dont want to think about getting a "Real" job with my degree one day, I dont want to face the fact that people are growing up and moving on, I dont want the responsability I will get that is associated with being a professional.
I would like to put things on hold and just take a break. Maybe work on my physical fitness and shead the extra weight I have put on and that is going to eventually drive me insane. Travel and see the world a bit. Not have to worry about assignments, exams, projects etc. Do something that has meaning to me.
Everything seems so meaningless to me at the moment... so distant from myself and so empty.
I mean dont get me wrong im not walking around in a mope feeling sorry for my self in my very fortunate situation... I guess im still adjusting to everything thats going on in my life right now... but I wish I could just slow down time. I just turned 25 and I was thinking that in another 25 years I will be 50... the last 25 sure didnt take too long so I bet the next will go even faster.
I really dont know what im trying to say here... but in general its just a random collection of my thoughts.
It seems as if I only post when there is something else I should be doing, in this case its a 6 page paper due monday and 4 journals due tuesday... in addition I'm suposed to have some articles read for my group meeting on monday which I hanven't had a chance to do yet.
I am the queen of procrastination and it seems like the urge to procrastinate has become 10-fold this year, and its the time I especially need to buckle down because I'm in my first year of masters and need to do well. But I think this all stems from the fact that I am SO SICK OF SCHOOL. I often find myself wishing I had have taken the year off and worked/traveled instead of jumping right from my BA into my MA. I mean there are the positive aspects such as I will be done my degree in less then two years now and can get a job much easier.
I am just feeling overwhelmed.
Overwhelmed with the responsability of school... the fact that its a new school... that its a masters program and that this is what I have chosen to do for the rest of my life,
Overwhelmed with the fact that all my freinds are changing, moving on and getting married etc.and things wont be the same again
Overwhelmed with my very new and very very different surroundings.
Uncomfortable because my apartment doesn't feel like home yet.
It just feels as if the walls are closing in on me sometimes and that I need to get out. Its unavoidable but I dont want to wake up and join the real world... I dont want to think about getting a "Real" job with my degree one day, I dont want to face the fact that people are growing up and moving on, I dont want the responsability I will get that is associated with being a professional.
I would like to put things on hold and just take a break. Maybe work on my physical fitness and shead the extra weight I have put on and that is going to eventually drive me insane. Travel and see the world a bit. Not have to worry about assignments, exams, projects etc. Do something that has meaning to me.
Everything seems so meaningless to me at the moment... so distant from myself and so empty.
I mean dont get me wrong im not walking around in a mope feeling sorry for my self in my very fortunate situation... I guess im still adjusting to everything thats going on in my life right now... but I wish I could just slow down time. I just turned 25 and I was thinking that in another 25 years I will be 50... the last 25 sure didnt take too long so I bet the next will go even faster.
I really dont know what im trying to say here... but in general its just a random collection of my thoughts.