Why Me?
What is wrong with the world? Why am I not allowed to be happy? I knew I hated summer for a reason. All this drama. Listen up everyone, Nick loves me, and I love him, there is nothing you can do or say that will change that. I really don't care what anyone thinks, our relationship is none of your bussiness. Keep your lies to yourself, I have enough to deal with right now. I don't know who's idea it was, but I really don't care. Why don't you all get lives instead of trying to ruin mine? We were happy until all these stupid sluts had to go and fuck it all up. He belongs to me, none of you will ever have him. If he didn't want to be with me, he wouldn't. He wouldn't come crawling back full of apologies for the things you've done if he didn't want to be with me. He's had pleanty of chances to leave, but he always stays. He always finds his way back to me. He doesn't want anyone else, and all of your bullshit isn't getting him any closer to changing his mind. He's made his decision, he wants to be with me. Who am I to deny him what he wants? I always give him exactly what he wants. Stop all this stupid jealousy bullshit. It's immature and not very flattering. I don't really care anymore, about anything. Now that I know who my real friends are, I don't need the rest of you. You know who you are. I never would've called any of you friends anyway. For those of you lucky enough to know me well, you know about my paranoid delusions. Everyone is out to get me. There's always someone standing behind me, ready to pull the trigger. This time it's real. Everyone, even the people I thought I could trust, are out to take the only thing in this waste I have. Well, Fuck You. I'm not stable. I never have been. If I were you, I would think more cafefully about who you decide to fuck with. I would kill for him. These past few weeks, it's actually crossed my mind how capeable I am. He always gets whatever he wants. I am the only one who can make him happy. I will destroy anyone who gets in the way. He is my god. It is commendable to kill in the name of your god. I would die for him. Self sacrafice is the highest form of love. I will do whatever I have to, to make this all stop. I'm not afraid anymore.