Who knew it would be so pretty, when my world came crashing down?
I lost it all. All in one day. My boyfriend, my friends, my happiness. Everything. Nick and I got back together after he said he didn't want to have a girlfriend. Then he changed his mind again, and said he couldn't pretend anymore. He said he wanted his space. How much more space could I give him? I just moved 50 fucking miles away. He wants to be friends. But how can I do that? It hurts so bad. He still kisses me, and holds my hand. He says that's how he wants it. To just see me a couple times a month, and when he does, he wants things to be just like normal. That feels so wrong. I don't want anyone else. I don't want anything. Except maybe to stop breathing.