Nightmare
Tonight, I hat a strange nightmare. An old fiend of me made fun of me in a Youtube- video. It made me so angry that I grabbed into the screen and hit her with a pole.
when I woke up, I felt terrible. We don´t talk to each other anymore. I don´t even understand WHY! I mean, what ever she thinks, I might have done, I can´t have, because I can´t "send" "energies" to hurt people. And even if I could, I never would. I don´t have such power over people and I don´t want it. The worst is, when I asked her what I supposedly had done to whom, she wouldn`t even answer me.
I don´t understand that whole thing at all. We were never as close as I would have liked us to be. She didn´t liked it when people asked her personal questions, and I tried to respect that. we never got as close as I would have liked. Just people who talked when there was nothing better to do.
What did she gain from this kind of break up? And why, nearly 2 years later, do I get nightmares from it? I haven´t thought about it for more than half a year...
Maybe because I´m finally fairly happy with very little problems and worries and my brain thinks that´s a good time to go back to hurtful things to relive them?
when I woke up, I felt terrible. We don´t talk to each other anymore. I don´t even understand WHY! I mean, what ever she thinks, I might have done, I can´t have, because I can´t "send" "energies" to hurt people. And even if I could, I never would. I don´t have such power over people and I don´t want it. The worst is, when I asked her what I supposedly had done to whom, she wouldn`t even answer me.
I don´t understand that whole thing at all. We were never as close as I would have liked us to be. She didn´t liked it when people asked her personal questions, and I tried to respect that. we never got as close as I would have liked. Just people who talked when there was nothing better to do.
What did she gain from this kind of break up? And why, nearly 2 years later, do I get nightmares from it? I haven´t thought about it for more than half a year...
Maybe because I´m finally fairly happy with very little problems and worries and my brain thinks that´s a good time to go back to hurtful things to relive them?