Truce
I am a ghost of all that i have ever said.
I've lied to you the same way i always do. this is the last smile that i'll fake for the sake of being with you. the sacrifice of hiding in the light. the sacrifice is never knowing why i never walked away, why i play myself this way. now i see that testing me pushes me away.
I am in way over my head.
I am scared beyond all belief.
I want to feel close to someone in all the wrong ways, more than ever.
I want to experience.
I want to know the truth.
I want you to realize I actually give two shits about you. How many people actually do?
Jesus, Grant.
I've lied to you the same way i always do. this is the last smile that i'll fake for the sake of being with you. the sacrifice of hiding in the light. the sacrifice is never knowing why i never walked away, why i play myself this way. now i see that testing me pushes me away.
I am in way over my head.
I am scared beyond all belief.
I want to feel close to someone in all the wrong ways, more than ever.
I want to experience.
I want to know the truth.
I want you to realize I actually give two shits about you. How many people actually do?
Jesus, Grant.