Requiem for a dream
Hi journal. I really am failing school now, and i guess i should care, but i dont.
Im certain that education is the key to any type of success yet that still stirs nothing in me to want school.
Isnt that disgusting-school- just the word is nasty.
You know whats a good word??? Chlamydia.
Just saying it. I know its an STI and everything, but its still a nice word.
When i hear it i think of a flower or something pretty.
I lost my virginity. with Darryl.
I gave him head too, I'm bad at that though.
The sex with Ashley gets so hot, I love it.
Im getting a summer job...again. This one will be sure to be easier because Ill work lk 3 hours a day. The one I did b4 was barely anything anyways.
I recently saw this awsome movie. My brother makes me watch stuff with him lk movies and videos and shows, its our bonding. And he showed me this movie that he saw when he was like 16. its called Requim for a Dream. I love that movie and even though its sad and stuff, it was awsome. Its about these 4 people and their drug addictions. Go watch.
I cant wait, I'm going to bamboozled. Its going to be awsome. I'll probably be all alone though because Teai is deserting me becausae shes moving to Rockaway Boulevard or something lk that that week.
I dont really have friends anymore and i can totally accept that fact now. Teai would stab me in the back in a heartbeat and she tells me that she would too. I so believe her, its whatever though cuz shes a pretty cool person and shes fun to be around, however never would i ever trust her with my life...or my wallet for that matter.
Sure i have Darryl and Ashley, but they arent friends, per say. They are more than friends on a couple of different levels.
Theres this new beweavable phenomenon wit me. I wear weave now. It makes me look pretty but I cant dye it unless its that expensive stuff like Remy weave. Remy costs like 100$ a pack tho. So, next week the fake hairs coming out and I'm dying it purple. I wont see wave nouvea(the curls) till summer.
I like to write. Almost as much as i like to dance. I cant dance now though, because we are poor, the rent is more and father stopped working meaning no child support. It will pass, or we'll starve. Only 2 options.
Its freakin spirit week at my school.
Ive got no spirit at alll to offer.
Only a few more days till 4/20. Me and Katie have been saving up because were going to get sooo baked.