school already sucks
i was surprised that school was'nt more you know....idk,. i just expected something. The work feels harder,it should be, because im taking Math B and Physics and im only in the 9th grade but whatever. This sucks cuz my skin is breaking out, probably from the stress or whatever. My face is usually somewhat clear, but its dying, and this is sad. My eyes hurt because i always want to cry and i dont really sleep, maybe 2 or 3 hours interupted by me waking up. then i usually watch TV for like an hour or two and fall back asleep then i repeat it and sleep until like 5;30 which is my wake up time.
my mom is now seeing a therapist, i could have told her she needed one of those along time ago. Everyone in my family needs some kind of help. i feel so depressed sometimes and im only 14, im gonna end up trying to kill myself or whatever, because i already dont think much of life. just thinking that theres not much left to it and no one here needs me, i cant dance anymore, theres no point and there is only one reason that im still here and its my mother she already tells me that shes a failure and she says shes sorry that shes weak and all this stuff and if her kid committed suicide she would break because deep down i know my mom is weak and i hope to god that i' m not like her in that way.
well, no pressure, but another reason is ashley, who nessisarily doesnt need me, but wants me. i want her too. i love you ashley.
my mom is now seeing a therapist, i could have told her she needed one of those along time ago. Everyone in my family needs some kind of help. i feel so depressed sometimes and im only 14, im gonna end up trying to kill myself or whatever, because i already dont think much of life. just thinking that theres not much left to it and no one here needs me, i cant dance anymore, theres no point and there is only one reason that im still here and its my mother she already tells me that shes a failure and she says shes sorry that shes weak and all this stuff and if her kid committed suicide she would break because deep down i know my mom is weak and i hope to god that i' m not like her in that way.
well, no pressure, but another reason is ashley, who nessisarily doesnt need me, but wants me. i want her too. i love you ashley.