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okay, so she wrote me a letter about wanting to take a *break* for a while...
okay i knew something was up since it was the day after valentines day... she says that she loves me a bunch, she wants to see how things work out if we dont' see each other for a week or 2, i was left in the dark, i didn't know what was going on, i just wanted to know for sure what brought on this shit, she said we didn't seem as happy, i know i should have treated her better, i now know, and regret not being more loving, and now
supposedly a friend saw her with a guy recently, so i'm pretty sure thats why she wants to be on break. trying to get a hold of her, but no luck.
so i'm drinking vodka now, haven't in a while, sucks cause she's been wanting to drink the past few weekends but i wasn't in the mood, and she wanted to go to my jam sessions but i kinda didn't let her, i'm awful...
oh well, its done, nothing i can do about it, still trying to get a hold of her to see exactly whats going on, see what she has to say, its so childish to have her cousing give me a note instead of talking to me, it was right before work, i wasn't upset, i actually was kinda relieved i guess, but when i got home, my i felt uncomfortable, i couldn't sleep, cause my pillows had her smell... blah!
she still has some of her clothes here, wonder whats gonna happen...
it feels good to just like cry sometimes, its easier for me to sleep when i just let it out, cause i feel so damn sick about all this....
okay i'm gonna go take another shot, and my cousins are picking me up for this party in valley view, see you there....
okay i knew something was up since it was the day after valentines day... she says that she loves me a bunch, she wants to see how things work out if we dont' see each other for a week or 2, i was left in the dark, i didn't know what was going on, i just wanted to know for sure what brought on this shit, she said we didn't seem as happy, i know i should have treated her better, i now know, and regret not being more loving, and now
supposedly a friend saw her with a guy recently, so i'm pretty sure thats why she wants to be on break. trying to get a hold of her, but no luck.
so i'm drinking vodka now, haven't in a while, sucks cause she's been wanting to drink the past few weekends but i wasn't in the mood, and she wanted to go to my jam sessions but i kinda didn't let her, i'm awful...
oh well, its done, nothing i can do about it, still trying to get a hold of her to see exactly whats going on, see what she has to say, its so childish to have her cousing give me a note instead of talking to me, it was right before work, i wasn't upset, i actually was kinda relieved i guess, but when i got home, my i felt uncomfortable, i couldn't sleep, cause my pillows had her smell... blah!
she still has some of her clothes here, wonder whats gonna happen...
it feels good to just like cry sometimes, its easier for me to sleep when i just let it out, cause i feel so damn sick about all this....
okay i'm gonna go take another shot, and my cousins are picking me up for this party in valley view, see you there....