Dreams
So I've been meaning to write this entry for a while but just haven't had the time. As the title suggests, this is about a dream I had fairly recently. Normally I wouldn't do a post on a dream I had, cos most of them are fairly random and makes no sense. However this dream was pretty unusual for me. For 1) it was fairly straight forward and 2) it was a two part dream, as in I had one part in one night and it continued the follwing night. That's something that's definitely not happened to me before.
So onto the dream. Unfortunately I can't rememeber much about the first part. The only thing I remember about it was how it ended, with me committing suicide by putting a gun in my mouth and pulling the trigger. Although I did it wrong. I didn't point the gun towards my brain, only to the back of my throat, so the bullet went straight through the back of my throat leaving a gaping hole there. Then remember falling down, powerless to do anything. Then my breathing started to slow down, I remember struggling to breath. Then I just closed my eyes and everything faded. At this point I woke up with me dying at the end of the dream. Now the annoying part of this dream is that I can't remember at all why I did it and what led upto these events. Just the ending. The reason why I can remember the ending only is that the beginning of the second part of the dream, which I had the following night, jogged the memory of it. That begins with me suddenly waking up in the same position that I thought I'd died in, gasping for air. That was such a bizarre feeling. At first I thought didn't I do what I thought I did? But then I could feel the air passing through the hole in my throat an passing my hand close it to feel the hole was definitely there. The only thing I can remember at that point was that I had to get to hospital. I guess a this point thing do get a bit bizarre and random. Cos I remember going to my brother's room and having a conversation with him. He didn't seem too concerned with the fact that I have a hole at the back my throat. And the whole time I'm speaking with him I can still feel the air passing through the hole. After I finished speaking with him, I was going downstairs and my mum came back with a friend. When she saw me she panicked and shared my concern to get to the hospital. My mum's friend offered to drive me there. So we all get in the car start driving and then... my fucking alarm goes off and wakes me up for work! For some bizarre reason I remember this second part so so vividly, even now it's been a few days since I had it. I really wish I could remember first part. I would like to know why I did what I did.
Ah well, I knows it's very random and I babbled on but I just thought I'd share that with y'all :)
So onto the dream. Unfortunately I can't rememeber much about the first part. The only thing I remember about it was how it ended, with me committing suicide by putting a gun in my mouth and pulling the trigger. Although I did it wrong. I didn't point the gun towards my brain, only to the back of my throat, so the bullet went straight through the back of my throat leaving a gaping hole there. Then remember falling down, powerless to do anything. Then my breathing started to slow down, I remember struggling to breath. Then I just closed my eyes and everything faded. At this point I woke up with me dying at the end of the dream. Now the annoying part of this dream is that I can't remember at all why I did it and what led upto these events. Just the ending. The reason why I can remember the ending only is that the beginning of the second part of the dream, which I had the following night, jogged the memory of it. That begins with me suddenly waking up in the same position that I thought I'd died in, gasping for air. That was such a bizarre feeling. At first I thought didn't I do what I thought I did? But then I could feel the air passing through the hole in my throat an passing my hand close it to feel the hole was definitely there. The only thing I can remember at that point was that I had to get to hospital. I guess a this point thing do get a bit bizarre and random. Cos I remember going to my brother's room and having a conversation with him. He didn't seem too concerned with the fact that I have a hole at the back my throat. And the whole time I'm speaking with him I can still feel the air passing through the hole. After I finished speaking with him, I was going downstairs and my mum came back with a friend. When she saw me she panicked and shared my concern to get to the hospital. My mum's friend offered to drive me there. So we all get in the car start driving and then... my fucking alarm goes off and wakes me up for work! For some bizarre reason I remember this second part so so vividly, even now it's been a few days since I had it. I really wish I could remember first part. I would like to know why I did what I did.
Ah well, I knows it's very random and I babbled on but I just thought I'd share that with y'all :)