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hey guys! how's everyone doing? Well i am now back at home because it's now easter that time of year again. Well not much is going on with me apart from training alot and school which sucks ass big time at the moment. You will be glad to hear that me and Annmarie my girlfriend are still going strong, but at this time we are going through a really bad patch, and it's getting me as well as her worried. Plus talking to someone is kinda hard as well.
Well since my last update i have manily worked my ass of to get some cash as well as train hard because as of May 1st my season finally starts. Been a long hard winter season for me and i just wanna release some monster throws, plus all the pent up aggression that has been building within me for the past 4 weeks!
I found out recently that i will no be getting a degree b/c the course that i am on is the 1st 2 years of a degree but after the 2 years you get a diploma and then an interview to determine weather or not they want you back for the next 2 years to finish the course. And unfortunaly i ain't coming back. So now all i have to do is cross my fingers and hope that i am able to transfer to GA with 48credits behind me, otherwise me getting there will not be happeneing for a long time.
So at this time in my life i am realising that normal life FUCKING SUCKS and i wish that i was 10years old again so that i can be sheltered from the outside world. I have to try and find some other ways of staying where i am to carry on training and plus i will be needing a job to also live. So my shoes are kinda scary at the moment because in one hand i am holding my education life (american college) and in the other i am holding the rest of my life (girlfriend troubles, money issues, training issues) plus loads more.
I am a phyiscal wreak inside and no one can help me out, but me myself and i. All my girlfriends that i have spoken to have all said the same thing "she's just freaking out, she'll be fine, it takes time", my mom is worried that i am worried because i am not sure on whats going on in my life in terms of school, trainin.
I am sure that i am strong enough to come through at the end in one piece!! Laters people
Well since my last update i have manily worked my ass of to get some cash as well as train hard because as of May 1st my season finally starts. Been a long hard winter season for me and i just wanna release some monster throws, plus all the pent up aggression that has been building within me for the past 4 weeks!
I found out recently that i will no be getting a degree b/c the course that i am on is the 1st 2 years of a degree but after the 2 years you get a diploma and then an interview to determine weather or not they want you back for the next 2 years to finish the course. And unfortunaly i ain't coming back. So now all i have to do is cross my fingers and hope that i am able to transfer to GA with 48credits behind me, otherwise me getting there will not be happeneing for a long time.
So at this time in my life i am realising that normal life FUCKING SUCKS and i wish that i was 10years old again so that i can be sheltered from the outside world. I have to try and find some other ways of staying where i am to carry on training and plus i will be needing a job to also live. So my shoes are kinda scary at the moment because in one hand i am holding my education life (american college) and in the other i am holding the rest of my life (girlfriend troubles, money issues, training issues) plus loads more.
I am a phyiscal wreak inside and no one can help me out, but me myself and i. All my girlfriends that i have spoken to have all said the same thing "she's just freaking out, she'll be fine, it takes time", my mom is worried that i am worried because i am not sure on whats going on in my life in terms of school, trainin.
I am sure that i am strong enough to come through at the end in one piece!! Laters people