Barbecue and microfiche
So this morning I woke up, very tired. I kept tossing and turning last night and I couldn't sleep. So that sucked.
I couldn't find anything to wear this morning, and it was just one of *those* mornings.
Then, I went to this luncheon at work. It was free food, so ya know, I'm always up for that. I don't really know much about the professor that they were giving it for, just that my husband enjoyed his classes. I was telling the prof. about this, when the DEAN interupted me and asked if I would SHARE this with the group - which includes professors, and all the school faculty and staff. ----Here's me being nervous----------
Well, in the end, it was fine. but GEEZ what a freakin month I've had.
Here's the good news: someone is actually USING the MICROFICHE right now. The same microfiche that I file every-single-day. The same microfiche that I've never-seen-anyone-use-ever.
My job is now validated.
Score.
In other news, we are FINALLY getting ready to move this weekend. The same weekend as the GRE. That, in my life, makes sense.
Last night I had a good cry- I'm so tired of my life NOT fitting together, not working out, just NOT. It seems there's always some kind of problem. I never thought that my life would be this way at age 26. I can't wait for the day when my husband and I have our little cute house in a pretty field with our animals and our kids and just a NORMAL life. You know, I stay home with the babies. Have supper ready. We eat when Dad gets home. Saturday outings to the zoo. Day in and day out, normal. But wonderfully normal.
Does it EVER get any easier?
One thing that has gotten easier- I feel more at peace with the consumer part of me. I don't feel the need to BUY BUY BUY. I no longer compare myself with other people (other women). Well okay. Maybe I still do. But it has gotten easier. I now know that the _REASON_ most women have the stuff that they have is because they are in debt. I know that where I am in life is NOT a place where I can afford to buy new clothes on a regular basis. But that's okay.
Look at all the people who have much harder lives than I do- who struggle just to find their next meal or a place to lay their heads.
When you look at it that way, I've got it pretty easy, and I should be grateful. I am grateful.
I am.
I couldn't find anything to wear this morning, and it was just one of *those* mornings.
Then, I went to this luncheon at work. It was free food, so ya know, I'm always up for that. I don't really know much about the professor that they were giving it for, just that my husband enjoyed his classes. I was telling the prof. about this, when the DEAN interupted me and asked if I would SHARE this with the group - which includes professors, and all the school faculty and staff. ----Here's me being nervous----------
Well, in the end, it was fine. but GEEZ what a freakin month I've had.
Here's the good news: someone is actually USING the MICROFICHE right now. The same microfiche that I file every-single-day. The same microfiche that I've never-seen-anyone-use-ever.
My job is now validated.
Score.
In other news, we are FINALLY getting ready to move this weekend. The same weekend as the GRE. That, in my life, makes sense.
Last night I had a good cry- I'm so tired of my life NOT fitting together, not working out, just NOT. It seems there's always some kind of problem. I never thought that my life would be this way at age 26. I can't wait for the day when my husband and I have our little cute house in a pretty field with our animals and our kids and just a NORMAL life. You know, I stay home with the babies. Have supper ready. We eat when Dad gets home. Saturday outings to the zoo. Day in and day out, normal. But wonderfully normal.
Does it EVER get any easier?
One thing that has gotten easier- I feel more at peace with the consumer part of me. I don't feel the need to BUY BUY BUY. I no longer compare myself with other people (other women). Well okay. Maybe I still do. But it has gotten easier. I now know that the _REASON_ most women have the stuff that they have is because they are in debt. I know that where I am in life is NOT a place where I can afford to buy new clothes on a regular basis. But that's okay.
Look at all the people who have much harder lives than I do- who struggle just to find their next meal or a place to lay their heads.
When you look at it that way, I've got it pretty easy, and I should be grateful. I am grateful.
I am.