anger
why do I have all this anger? Why do I fly off the handle at the littlest things? Why can't I control my emotions? Instead I hurt the ones I love? Is it a protective barrier to keep me from ever knowing true happiness? Do I do this because I don't feel I deserve happiness? When did I stop thinking I deserved happiness? I know when... it seems that I have stopped breathing since the day you went away..... that day has made me unable to enjoy the simple things in life... the small joys that make life worth living... I don't feel worthy of this joy... then she came into my life...showing me that love does exist for me... and yet I push her away.... through the darkness she has brought light... She asked me a question that still is resonating my soul...."Do you love me enough to help yourself?" The answer is not difficult... the fear of the journey is... it is time for me to say goodbye to the demons and monsters that clutter my mind and soul... whatever they are... with the promise of her standing by me through it thick or thin... as I don't want to lose her because now I know what it is like to truly be in love...