well,

[javajane9]

it's been a while.
and i just feel like crap.

i'm just bored to death.
with my life.
and with myself.
shocker.
really.

i need to get better at this whole thing.
life, that is.

i have never been this
lost?
i don't even know if that's the right word.

i'm very angry.
i feel
insignificant.

i can't make anything matter.
to anyone.
or to myself.

i just don't mean it.

i'm impatiently awaiting the first snow.
and a new wind.