see i'm not a complete fucking moron

[jastastic]

Im not as dumb as I look. Someone close to me did exactly what I hoped would not happen. Both she and her friend played beer pong w/ vodka at some guys apartment and they both ened up passing out. I guess they stopped drinking at 6am. Its gotta be 10:15pm where she is. She has a hangover and I hope that's the worst of it. Her friend has SEVER alcohol poisioning. She has convulsions and is throwing up blood. No body has thought to get this girl medical attention. College students!!! I knew I had good reasons not to trust her friend not to get them in a stupid dangerous situation. I've been there and I know... People want to pretend that I have no clue of the dangers in this world and that I'm over reacting.

I guess the thing that really pisses me off is that I somehow got demoted from boyfriend to friend. The determiner and attitude lacks any feeling. I may be back on the market before long... I call and say hi she use to call and say hi. I get Wattup! WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT? SHE HASNT SAID SHE LOVED ME OR MISSED ME SINCE SHE GOT THERE! Its like i said i got demoted to friend so she can do as she wants til she comes back from vacation. The whole thing is fucked and makes me want to fucking explode. Kinda mad at my self cause I just went on vacation. I didnt call for the first 4 days as I was out to sea and out of reception.

fuck it I gotta be at work tomorrow before i know it... Maybe I'll get there sober this time.