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Can't find my white one yet. Had a wonderful Thanksgiving:) Finished outside as snow started. Time just seems to float by. The inside needs work. I have else to do. I'm glad my parents can not see the inside of the house. I am a lifeboat with, with helpful things in storage! I can't change until something changes with me! If I had money for everytime someone said I shouldn't be doing what I'm doing (mainly art and photo) I'd be rich!!! And half of those are probably just trying to move me somewhere else! It's really hard to live like this. Hope to find a topic and drawing to put in here!
11/26/12 Happened to catch two Thanksgiving parades. The young high school kids on TV blew me away. They were so professional!!!! If the Rat Pack was watching, they would get an invite to Vegas! All across the board!!!...so professional. Times change. Makes me feel secure :)
11/27/2012 Just about got a really cute talking Christmas E- card set up and you have to Pay For IT...what the hell, they used to be free!:-&
12/5/12 Busy Busy Busy on my time off. Go back to work tomorrow. Isn't this interesting. I was out driving and the moon was coming up yellow, just like a cat's eye!
12/10/12 I don't really have anything to write about, I always remember something when I get home. I'm doing way too much now. I have connected with some solutions. So I'm happy with that, but things are too complicated. I was dragged in my other job and I looked up to see a sea of teens in Santa costumes. That was a smash hit! Sorry I can't put anything more in here. I've decided my photos don't look as good as my background and I'm trying to research that among other things. Things are really blank and way too crammed. I can't keep up. Maybe I can find something, anything to put up in here. Love VAl Wow
12/12/12...Wow
Head's spinning. Walking on ice. Do you dare? Will it crack? Why do I see myself in other places and I can't get. Some of this is so put together! It's so great!!!! I'm making progress, I know because I'm starting to skim thru things I know before I hit snags. I only had one breakdown this time with the book. Still too many questions I need answers for and everything is set up for one. I'm getting amazed and piss I don't have enough money. If I had more money I could work this out a lot easier. Why not? It's getting to the point I am resting on my other job...my body is not! I hate being cut off and cut out. How can you reach inside yourself and get out. I saw some amazing pictures the other day.
12/17/12 I'm doing way too much. I hope I can hold on. I need a guy. I just don't know how all this is going to gel out. I really don't have enough time. So horrible about the killings. Life is hell.
You know I go home at night and I have no one. And there is no one here, that I have ever known, that is even close. I can come up with tons to fill up my time but when it comes to guys, I can't find a portal. I'm walking on, but the ice cracks all around. I'll go home tonight and read my studio notes. I need to get on here again and I don't think I will. I did get some questions answered, when I thought I would not. I got some sudy done. This softwear book I am reading, I am reading more now. Not staring at every phrase, trying to understand what is being said. How did I get on to that? My brain is remembering? It should, I have already taken big notes three seperate times on this. I learn taking notes. And your only really trying to find a trail through the program for you. But in doing so you need to know so much about many many things so you can make the best educated decisions about how you are going to use the program. I swear, this is the last program I will learn. Or try to learn.
12/31/1
I'm sorry I have not been around! I didn't wish anyone Merry Christmas...well Happy New Year. I really don't have time. I haven't changed the background or anything...well you will have to rough it. I did get some time off and I'm telling you I am beginning to feel like I used to feel. I need rest...a certain type. I have been home and not going to work and I'm me again. Every time I reach for something it is there. I rearranged my studio office and that did wonders for my well being!! It didn't take so long because I have everything already labeled. So important when you have many things stuffed away. You put the most used forward and tell what is in every package. I can't believe it, I can SEE the top of my second desk!!!!!!!! I've also been trying to learn a program. For me that is like saying I'm learning computer too. The best part of all this is that I am actually learning it and remembering.
In algebra, I would be learning to take a test! My worst thing is math. I try. Some of my history in it has been funny, some I still have questions. I'm not good in math. I know I'm not good. If I have to do it, like balance checkbook, I do it by hand and use a calculator and check the results. I used to take some of my math to my father while I was in school and he helped me with it. Not too much, because I muddled through most. But when I took base 7 to him he went in orbit! "Those kids can't even learn normal math and they are trying to teach them this!!!!!!!!!!!" I finally got on to base 7 without my father. The whole thing was funny! Looking back base 7 and 12 were just the thinking that got us computers!!!!!! And I don't see anything wrong with that!!!!!!!! And most of the kids around me back then, were doing way better than I with normal math. But I sure don't put my father down. If is wasn't for him sitting me down for two weeks straight I would not understand the subject/verb concept of diagramming sentences. I went on from there and didn't have any problems! Algebra was harder. (I didn't have help from my father.) My teacher couldn't explain the hardest part and I was too young to even know about tutors. Geometry was easier. I always wondered about Trig. I wish I could have gotten through that. Senior Math is something I don't want to be a part of. So now you know how dumb I am in math. I have Cliff Notes though:)
1/3/13 Too pressed for time.
1/10/13 I have rested while getting thru some learning. My back has really had it for three years. I can feel the poor thing growing more and more like it was. But I won't have time enough. I'm sorry I'm not in here. I haven't even changed the picture. It's okay. The night before last was a dream of rest.
1/21/1
Again I'm not anywhere. I'm sitting there, In weeks I could not relax, I'm buried in safety and study and rest and the doorbell rings. "A water main broke down the street, do you have water in your basement?" I couldn't believe it...I hadn't heard anything. (You don't if water rises, unless something falls!!!) I expected everything to be dry as I walked down the stairs, but wow, there was water...approaching the first step!!!The water main broke and flooded a sewer
outlet. Everyone's basement backed up with filth. Not the best of interludes. I've just been on to that and
working. So this again is blank. It's cold here, for a time, I'm afraid. Not
the normal winter. I'm afraid we are in global warming. We have not had much
rain last summer and we are not getting much snow this winder. My poor old tree
dropped one of it's dead limb parts directly at the end of the drive. You think
it is trying to tell me something? Probably not. I'm beginning, I feel,
becoming involved in things too far advanced or not commonly accepted yet, with my photo filing. I just can't find info on the dangers out there,
if any. I don't know what to do. Or who to ask.
2/11/13
Sorry I've been hard at work and not feeling well. Sometime I really feel I
have bitten off more than I can chew. I've never felt this before. It all gets
so complicated. Then when I step back I see that I have made progress. But
this time it is different because I am dealing with so much I don't understand
how it works and I need it to work to progress. I am trying and have tried to
fish out problems that would stop me dead in this, making this endeavor null.
But happily I have not found any yet. My Father would think I was nuts. I
sometimes do wonder if I should be getting into this as far as I am. I've built
up such a good system over the years, I wanted to make it work. But as with
math. This is it. I'm not going any further. I am learning a lot. It's hard
to learn because I don't quite know what they are talking about in the first
place. I have to keep going back over and back over and pick up every little
detail when I don't understand. Sometimes this finally gives me a
understanding. Sometimes I have to ask questions. And the lists I must make,
add to, and keep up to a tee. I can't just sit when I think of something, it
must be written down. I must study any info I get...and I'm tired and the TV is
sometimes on and I just want to lay down and sleep or rest. The bag I am
carrying around now is huge. Today, I mean it, I almost did not make it in here
with all the weight. I was going to use the luggage carrier but I thought there
would still be water and salt around (it is metal) but no. There is more to
go. I'm so glad that I worked out a world view like I did, saying that today
everyone sometimes has the finest art in them and sometimes mostly everyone is
an artist. I believe this. Maybe it is helping. I pray that there are no more
breaks like the water main. Sorry, no new background or activity yet. This is
going to be a blank area for awhile!
MARCH 2!
WATCHING CAT GIFS HERE!!!!!!!:)
11/26/12 Happened to catch two Thanksgiving parades. The young high school kids on TV blew me away. They were so professional!!!! If the Rat Pack was watching, they would get an invite to Vegas! All across the board!!!...so professional. Times change. Makes me feel secure :)
11/27/2012 Just about got a really cute talking Christmas E- card set up and you have to Pay For IT...what the hell, they used to be free!:-&
12/5/12 Busy Busy Busy on my time off. Go back to work tomorrow. Isn't this interesting. I was out driving and the moon was coming up yellow, just like a cat's eye!
12/10/12 I don't really have anything to write about, I always remember something when I get home. I'm doing way too much now. I have connected with some solutions. So I'm happy with that, but things are too complicated. I was dragged in my other job and I looked up to see a sea of teens in Santa costumes. That was a smash hit! Sorry I can't put anything more in here. I've decided my photos don't look as good as my background and I'm trying to research that among other things. Things are really blank and way too crammed. I can't keep up. Maybe I can find something, anything to put up in here. Love VAl Wow
12/12/12...Wow
Head's spinning. Walking on ice. Do you dare? Will it crack? Why do I see myself in other places and I can't get. Some of this is so put together! It's so great!!!! I'm making progress, I know because I'm starting to skim thru things I know before I hit snags. I only had one breakdown this time with the book. Still too many questions I need answers for and everything is set up for one. I'm getting amazed and piss I don't have enough money. If I had more money I could work this out a lot easier. Why not? It's getting to the point I am resting on my other job...my body is not! I hate being cut off and cut out. How can you reach inside yourself and get out. I saw some amazing pictures the other day.
12/17/12 I'm doing way too much. I hope I can hold on. I need a guy. I just don't know how all this is going to gel out. I really don't have enough time. So horrible about the killings. Life is hell.
You know I go home at night and I have no one. And there is no one here, that I have ever known, that is even close. I can come up with tons to fill up my time but when it comes to guys, I can't find a portal. I'm walking on, but the ice cracks all around. I'll go home tonight and read my studio notes. I need to get on here again and I don't think I will. I did get some questions answered, when I thought I would not. I got some sudy done. This softwear book I am reading, I am reading more now. Not staring at every phrase, trying to understand what is being said. How did I get on to that? My brain is remembering? It should, I have already taken big notes three seperate times on this. I learn taking notes. And your only really trying to find a trail through the program for you. But in doing so you need to know so much about many many things so you can make the best educated decisions about how you are going to use the program. I swear, this is the last program I will learn. Or try to learn.
12/31/1
I'm sorry I have not been around! I didn't wish anyone Merry Christmas...well Happy New Year. I really don't have time. I haven't changed the background or anything...well you will have to rough it. I did get some time off and I'm telling you I am beginning to feel like I used to feel. I need rest...a certain type. I have been home and not going to work and I'm me again. Every time I reach for something it is there. I rearranged my studio office and that did wonders for my well being!! It didn't take so long because I have everything already labeled. So important when you have many things stuffed away. You put the most used forward and tell what is in every package. I can't believe it, I can SEE the top of my second desk!!!!!!!! I've also been trying to learn a program. For me that is like saying I'm learning computer too. The best part of all this is that I am actually learning it and remembering.
In algebra, I would be learning to take a test! My worst thing is math. I try. Some of my history in it has been funny, some I still have questions. I'm not good in math. I know I'm not good. If I have to do it, like balance checkbook, I do it by hand and use a calculator and check the results. I used to take some of my math to my father while I was in school and he helped me with it. Not too much, because I muddled through most. But when I took base 7 to him he went in orbit! "Those kids can't even learn normal math and they are trying to teach them this!!!!!!!!!!!" I finally got on to base 7 without my father. The whole thing was funny! Looking back base 7 and 12 were just the thinking that got us computers!!!!!! And I don't see anything wrong with that!!!!!!!! And most of the kids around me back then, were doing way better than I with normal math. But I sure don't put my father down. If is wasn't for him sitting me down for two weeks straight I would not understand the subject/verb concept of diagramming sentences. I went on from there and didn't have any problems! Algebra was harder. (I didn't have help from my father.) My teacher couldn't explain the hardest part and I was too young to even know about tutors. Geometry was easier. I always wondered about Trig. I wish I could have gotten through that. Senior Math is something I don't want to be a part of. So now you know how dumb I am in math. I have Cliff Notes though:)
1/3/13 Too pressed for time.
1/10/13 I have rested while getting thru some learning. My back has really had it for three years. I can feel the poor thing growing more and more like it was. But I won't have time enough. I'm sorry I'm not in here. I haven't even changed the picture. It's okay. The night before last was a dream of rest.
1/21/1
Again I'm not anywhere. I'm sitting there, In weeks I could not relax, I'm buried in safety and study and rest and the doorbell rings. "A water main broke down the street, do you have water in your basement?" I couldn't believe it...I hadn't heard anything. (You don't if water rises, unless something falls!!!) I expected everything to be dry as I walked down the stairs, but wow, there was water...approaching the first step!!!The water main broke and flooded a sewer
outlet. Everyone's basement backed up with filth. Not the best of interludes. I've just been on to that and
working. So this again is blank. It's cold here, for a time, I'm afraid. Not
the normal winter. I'm afraid we are in global warming. We have not had much
rain last summer and we are not getting much snow this winder. My poor old tree
dropped one of it's dead limb parts directly at the end of the drive. You think
it is trying to tell me something? Probably not. I'm beginning, I feel,
becoming involved in things too far advanced or not commonly accepted yet, with my photo filing. I just can't find info on the dangers out there,
if any. I don't know what to do. Or who to ask.
2/11/13
Sorry I've been hard at work and not feeling well. Sometime I really feel I
have bitten off more than I can chew. I've never felt this before. It all gets
so complicated. Then when I step back I see that I have made progress. But
this time it is different because I am dealing with so much I don't understand
how it works and I need it to work to progress. I am trying and have tried to
fish out problems that would stop me dead in this, making this endeavor null.
But happily I have not found any yet. My Father would think I was nuts. I
sometimes do wonder if I should be getting into this as far as I am. I've built
up such a good system over the years, I wanted to make it work. But as with
math. This is it. I'm not going any further. I am learning a lot. It's hard
to learn because I don't quite know what they are talking about in the first
place. I have to keep going back over and back over and pick up every little
detail when I don't understand. Sometimes this finally gives me a
understanding. Sometimes I have to ask questions. And the lists I must make,
add to, and keep up to a tee. I can't just sit when I think of something, it
must be written down. I must study any info I get...and I'm tired and the TV is
sometimes on and I just want to lay down and sleep or rest. The bag I am
carrying around now is huge. Today, I mean it, I almost did not make it in here
with all the weight. I was going to use the luggage carrier but I thought there
would still be water and salt around (it is metal) but no. There is more to
go. I'm so glad that I worked out a world view like I did, saying that today
everyone sometimes has the finest art in them and sometimes mostly everyone is
an artist. I believe this. Maybe it is helping. I pray that there are no more
breaks like the water main. Sorry, no new background or activity yet. This is
going to be a blank area for awhile!
MARCH 2!
WATCHING CAT GIFS HERE!!!!!!!:)