funerals
sooooooooooooo...my grandmother died a couple weeks ago and the memorial service was today. you see i had this idea that they had just popped her in a freezer or something until now and i had been praying that it wouldnt be open-casket. turns out she was cremated. phew. whenever i talk about my grandmother to people im usually making fun of her. she was crazy. she was an abbrasive lunatic. i had never made an effort to be particularly close to her and at first it didnt really phase me when we all knew she was on her way out. but then at the service i sobbed the whole goddamn time. i mean i went to the bathroom and sobbed like my mother had died or something. i started to think about all these really great times me and my sister and my cousin had with her. but then i was like what are you talking about hana, you didnt even really like the woman. it was very confusing. i think what really got me was watching my grandfather and my uncle breakdown over and over. i have got to say my grandmother was really great in a lot of ways. im gonna miss her. i got to meet some of my moms old crazy friends from baltimore and hear some really great stories. aqpparently my mom was a bit wild and didnt give a shit what anyone thought. and john waters was asking about her the other day. and ricki lake was a slut back in her hairspray days.