Jasper and Alice Tales Breaking Dawn Part 2
Title: Jasper and Alice Tales Breaking Dawn Part 2 (of 3)
Rating: M
Warnings:
Characters/Pairing: Jasper/Alice other Cullens
Summary: Follows cannon BD through Jasper's thoughts emotions ups and downs during the time Bella has changed.
*Part 1 here - http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5275424/4/Alice_Jasper_Tales_in_ALL_Twilight_Saga_period
Part 2 - ff addy- http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5275424/5/
*J+A*
I knew I could count on her feeling though these, these were as unusual she perplexed me. Like Edward had warned me that little Renesme had shown her food, her human blood and the draw it had to her, I held her I did it before I had even registered her feelings her mood because of Renesmes safety. Though as I felt her Bella knew I had to hold her she didn't struggle in my loose restraint because she felt relaxed calm there was no desire, no craving, none.
"What did I do?" she said calmly with confusion hinting through.
Edward looked at me we knew exactly what she did, I shouldn't say wrong just perplexing.
"But she was remembering being thirsty" "She was remembering the taste of human blood." Edward clearing it up for Bella as if it were justified. I didn't feel quite the same way.
I pulled a little tighter thinking again she would remember the smell.
"Yes" "and?" she said still confused etched within me HOW?.
"And nothing at all, it seems. The overreaction is mine this time. Jazz, let her go."
I let go, sure too in myself and talent that her mood there was held with no obsession driving it, it was just me for precaution and instinctive reaction.
I really couldn't stand it, it went against everything I knew, How was I to protect her and Renesme when she didn't need protecting?
To say I was frustrated was an understatement, I also felt out of control I could feel myself anger ozzing through me I need to get away before I depressed them all at my own failure or this volcano inside of me is going to erupt.
"I can't understand" "I can't bear this"
*J+A*
I had to leave, I left with utter frustration and confusion I went out into the forest I headed down the others hunt route way following Alice's scent, it calmed me just smelling her I ran through the forest I had run quite a while, though there was nowhere to run to. I couldn't face seeing the others, not yet so I sat down slumped under a tree.
How does she do it so easily, I have to say I thought I would find it easier that Bella is a vampire at least I thought I did. But this is worse, I can't avoid her, it just adds more doubt as it to how easy it is to resist the urge of human blood.
I began to think about how I can only focus on my control, looking back I had been proud of how far I have come since meeting Alice when I first hunted animals. I made myself think about the one fact they all reminded me while we were at school. What Alice and Edward reminded me. 'Jasper you have had a significantly large amount of blood even more than a regular vampire let alone vegetarians so of course you are going to find it hard and lengthily.
I sat here a while calming down feeling the anger simmer until it was gone and happiness seeped through me. Whether on purpose or not but at that moment the smell rushed through my nose, I ran it came from the east I ran along the unmarked path. I went for her waist as she bound forward I couldn't see the others in her direction, I lifted and spun her around. The happiness didn't last she had her arms around my waist, "Jazz I would have warned you had I of known and I guess I warned you all but I only knew until she had the control within her".
"I don't blame you, or Bella I just can't understand it." I told her hoping she hadn't taken this to be her fault, I expected nothing from Alice.
"Jazz it is probably her gift, or the fact that she had time to prepare being a vampire, she knew more than anyone what it would be like before hand while she was still human." Whether being told and knowing this is her gift still doesn't help. I can't help my protecting instincts, they were intrinsic. Alice lifted her hands up my chest "Jasper just think how Emmett feels not being the strongest anymore."
I laughed and she was right that must be frustrating for him, probably more so.
"Thanks"
"Now imagine your gift suddenly only working to feel others emotions and suddenly not being able to control them as well" I was perplexed, I could imagine that I guess Emmett would be really annoyed and especially as he was competitive and brawly to say the least.
She let her hands slide down along with her face. "I meant me, I meant my gift." She said solemnly.
I had just shot myself in the foot how could I have not realised we have had endless conversations since we found out Renesme left holes as well as the wolves I felt like crying. I had absolutely no reason to allow this to eat me up, I am who I am it will take a lot more decades or even centuries to lose the drive of blood. I bent down lifted her chin up and kissed her. Tenderly my tongue; an antiseptic to her wounded soul enveloped her mouth. Remorse seeped from me in to her along with lust and love. I had no words for not realising and for letting the situation depress me.
I took her hand and led her with me back to our home. I glanced down at one point and interrupted the pleasurable silence to ask her a question.
"Alice can you come hunting with me I know you went just with the others but I need to help block my head it will make me less grouchy I know", hoping that point may sway her with her decision.
"Jasper you shouldn't need food to make you feel stronger in your self, but yes we will go later." She took my hand and we went back towards the house as we were a mile away we bumped into Esme and Emmett who Alice had left and they followed their original path back. The thought of facing Bella and Edward after my exit dawned on me as we got closer. "Come on Jasper I need to give Bella our present"
I walked behind ever slower I let go of Alices' hand she clearly wanted to get back, they had been a little longer than usual, fitting in their hunt and checking the house though not by more than ten minutes but still notable had I not met her it would have worried me. She swirled back to the house with Esme a few seconds later I felt Em's fist nudge my arm "come on bro" I went a little faster. I watched as Alice danced, she took it all into her stride, these blind spots and I went forward my head down but more happiness seep though the shame would go I told myself.
*J+A*
As we got into the house Alice was so excited about giving Bella her Birthday present. As she held out the key for Bella, this in turn annoyed Bella I could imagine why she hated the idea of having a vampire birthday. Then as Alice told her that it was for her actual birthday I felt her mood drop in an instant her anger flowed. Alice had none of it and fought Bella on this; besides it would be for her benefit completely.
*J+A*
"But look how she is dressed" "it has been killing me all day"
Bella seemed perplexed looking at the key Alice had given her. We hopefully have found a present to give her that she/they will enjoy. It had been hard to hide it from her.
"I know- I'll play you for it" "Rock, paper scissors" Alice said. I had to laugh not even Edward could get her on this one.
"Why don't you just tell me who wins?" Edward was defeated there was no winning with Alice, well I can't say others don't win around Alice I sure have my ways of persuasion with her. She went off to show Bella the house.
It wouldn't be so strange Edward had spent a lot of time over at Bella's house so it wouldn't be so strange, but that had been a while ago. Tonight we all have Renesme to look after. I asked if we could have some time alone when Alice came back so I could hunt, we would take our turn later.
Thank You for reading
Rating: M
Warnings:
Characters/Pairing: Jasper/Alice other Cullens
Summary: Follows cannon BD through Jasper's thoughts emotions ups and downs during the time Bella has changed.
*Part 1 here - http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5275424/4/Alice_Jasper_Tales_in_ALL_Twilight_Saga_period
Part 2 - ff addy- http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5275424/5/
*J+A*
I knew I could count on her feeling though these, these were as unusual she perplexed me. Like Edward had warned me that little Renesme had shown her food, her human blood and the draw it had to her, I held her I did it before I had even registered her feelings her mood because of Renesmes safety. Though as I felt her Bella knew I had to hold her she didn't struggle in my loose restraint because she felt relaxed calm there was no desire, no craving, none.
"What did I do?" she said calmly with confusion hinting through.
Edward looked at me we knew exactly what she did, I shouldn't say wrong just perplexing.
"But she was remembering being thirsty" "She was remembering the taste of human blood." Edward clearing it up for Bella as if it were justified. I didn't feel quite the same way.
I pulled a little tighter thinking again she would remember the smell.
"Yes" "and?" she said still confused etched within me HOW?.
"And nothing at all, it seems. The overreaction is mine this time. Jazz, let her go."
I let go, sure too in myself and talent that her mood there was held with no obsession driving it, it was just me for precaution and instinctive reaction.
I really couldn't stand it, it went against everything I knew, How was I to protect her and Renesme when she didn't need protecting?
To say I was frustrated was an understatement, I also felt out of control I could feel myself anger ozzing through me I need to get away before I depressed them all at my own failure or this volcano inside of me is going to erupt.
"I can't understand" "I can't bear this"
*J+A*
I had to leave, I left with utter frustration and confusion I went out into the forest I headed down the others hunt route way following Alice's scent, it calmed me just smelling her I ran through the forest I had run quite a while, though there was nowhere to run to. I couldn't face seeing the others, not yet so I sat down slumped under a tree.
How does she do it so easily, I have to say I thought I would find it easier that Bella is a vampire at least I thought I did. But this is worse, I can't avoid her, it just adds more doubt as it to how easy it is to resist the urge of human blood.
I began to think about how I can only focus on my control, looking back I had been proud of how far I have come since meeting Alice when I first hunted animals. I made myself think about the one fact they all reminded me while we were at school. What Alice and Edward reminded me. 'Jasper you have had a significantly large amount of blood even more than a regular vampire let alone vegetarians so of course you are going to find it hard and lengthily.
I sat here a while calming down feeling the anger simmer until it was gone and happiness seeped through me. Whether on purpose or not but at that moment the smell rushed through my nose, I ran it came from the east I ran along the unmarked path. I went for her waist as she bound forward I couldn't see the others in her direction, I lifted and spun her around. The happiness didn't last she had her arms around my waist, "Jazz I would have warned you had I of known and I guess I warned you all but I only knew until she had the control within her".
"I don't blame you, or Bella I just can't understand it." I told her hoping she hadn't taken this to be her fault, I expected nothing from Alice.
"Jazz it is probably her gift, or the fact that she had time to prepare being a vampire, she knew more than anyone what it would be like before hand while she was still human." Whether being told and knowing this is her gift still doesn't help. I can't help my protecting instincts, they were intrinsic. Alice lifted her hands up my chest "Jasper just think how Emmett feels not being the strongest anymore."
I laughed and she was right that must be frustrating for him, probably more so.
"Thanks"
"Now imagine your gift suddenly only working to feel others emotions and suddenly not being able to control them as well" I was perplexed, I could imagine that I guess Emmett would be really annoyed and especially as he was competitive and brawly to say the least.
She let her hands slide down along with her face. "I meant me, I meant my gift." She said solemnly.
I had just shot myself in the foot how could I have not realised we have had endless conversations since we found out Renesme left holes as well as the wolves I felt like crying. I had absolutely no reason to allow this to eat me up, I am who I am it will take a lot more decades or even centuries to lose the drive of blood. I bent down lifted her chin up and kissed her. Tenderly my tongue; an antiseptic to her wounded soul enveloped her mouth. Remorse seeped from me in to her along with lust and love. I had no words for not realising and for letting the situation depress me.
I took her hand and led her with me back to our home. I glanced down at one point and interrupted the pleasurable silence to ask her a question.
"Alice can you come hunting with me I know you went just with the others but I need to help block my head it will make me less grouchy I know", hoping that point may sway her with her decision.
"Jasper you shouldn't need food to make you feel stronger in your self, but yes we will go later." She took my hand and we went back towards the house as we were a mile away we bumped into Esme and Emmett who Alice had left and they followed their original path back. The thought of facing Bella and Edward after my exit dawned on me as we got closer. "Come on Jasper I need to give Bella our present"
I walked behind ever slower I let go of Alices' hand she clearly wanted to get back, they had been a little longer than usual, fitting in their hunt and checking the house though not by more than ten minutes but still notable had I not met her it would have worried me. She swirled back to the house with Esme a few seconds later I felt Em's fist nudge my arm "come on bro" I went a little faster. I watched as Alice danced, she took it all into her stride, these blind spots and I went forward my head down but more happiness seep though the shame would go I told myself.
*J+A*
As we got into the house Alice was so excited about giving Bella her Birthday present. As she held out the key for Bella, this in turn annoyed Bella I could imagine why she hated the idea of having a vampire birthday. Then as Alice told her that it was for her actual birthday I felt her mood drop in an instant her anger flowed. Alice had none of it and fought Bella on this; besides it would be for her benefit completely.
*J+A*
"But look how she is dressed" "it has been killing me all day"
Bella seemed perplexed looking at the key Alice had given her. We hopefully have found a present to give her that she/they will enjoy. It had been hard to hide it from her.
"I know- I'll play you for it" "Rock, paper scissors" Alice said. I had to laugh not even Edward could get her on this one.
"Why don't you just tell me who wins?" Edward was defeated there was no winning with Alice, well I can't say others don't win around Alice I sure have my ways of persuasion with her. She went off to show Bella the house.
It wouldn't be so strange Edward had spent a lot of time over at Bella's house so it wouldn't be so strange, but that had been a while ago. Tonight we all have Renesme to look after. I asked if we could have some time alone when Alice came back so I could hunt, we would take our turn later.
Thank You for reading