'' As I Say Goodnight To Myself''
I guess i really don't know where my life is leading me right now. its kinda like a roller coaster ride, lately it been mostly on the down side for me though ,like a really big hill and a endless drop, i don't know iv just not felt happy in a long long time. huh maybe its just me in a funk or something but just don't like it. i feel empty and mostly alone,i mean there are the best friends in the world that i have but im going to be greedy and want more. well more like a someone. i just miss the feeling of... well feeling loved. everyday feels like its a count down and more and more things go to hell. i want my old self back but at the same time i know that i need to move on and find my place in this wonderful world! im fighting inside and i just want it all to stop, i want to be free of it, free from everything.