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Well, this post has been a few days in the making. I just wasn't ready to post it.
Last week was hard on me emotionally. Monday we talked online and that conversation shook me for several days. I spent a lot of time thinking about what was said, and acting on some of it. Then Friday we talked online and I said somethings I needed to say.
I can now honestly say that I am at peace with the break-up. I still love her greatly and miss her terribly, but I can let go emotionally. It's important to me that ALL our mutual friends understand I hold no resentment towards her for this break-up. Yes, there are still issues I need to work out, and I guess I have to deal with those alone. So be it.
Now I face the task of moving on. Of trying to be alive again. I want to feel something more than hurt, loneliness, anger and self loathing. I want something to look forward to.
Last week was hard on me emotionally. Monday we talked online and that conversation shook me for several days. I spent a lot of time thinking about what was said, and acting on some of it. Then Friday we talked online and I said somethings I needed to say.
I can now honestly say that I am at peace with the break-up. I still love her greatly and miss her terribly, but I can let go emotionally. It's important to me that ALL our mutual friends understand I hold no resentment towards her for this break-up. Yes, there are still issues I need to work out, and I guess I have to deal with those alone. So be it.
Now I face the task of moving on. Of trying to be alive again. I want to feel something more than hurt, loneliness, anger and self loathing. I want something to look forward to.