What's it mean?
To be Jason Lester in 2009... donning Bowie inspired eye-makeup-- being more of a girl than my girlfriend. Working another deadend job with no ambition to improve myself: hoping to improve myself anyway, or at least find the ambition. Madly in love and mostly happy. Just wishing I'd do more of what I already do... wishing I had more gumption or something. Tired of getting head-colds... the only kind of sick I ever get. Buddhism, drinking, not enough of either. What should I do now?!