May 24, 2006 12:04
I was lying in bed last night just thinking and I realized that I have never really been in love till now.
I used to think that I knew what it's like to be in love but regardless of what all my past relationships were I've decided that they weren't love. Infatuation, lust, intrigue maybe, but not love.
What I'm feeling now with Tara is ....well it's beyond words, the only word that comes close is love but even that seems like an understatement.
I would do anything to make her happy, even if it meant leaving everything I have and moving to Pittsburgh tomorrow.
What's really odd is that I've never even seen her in person, yet I still would give up my life for her in a second.
Sorry if I seem a little over the top dramatic but last night on the phone, she said "I love you" and my head is still in the clouds.
I don't believe anyone's ever said those words to me and truly meant it till now.
Tara is by far, the best thing that's ever happened to me and it hurts so much to be stuck on opposite ends of the country but at least there's finally a light at the end of my tunnel.
August needs to hurry up and get here!