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i've been doing a lot better on most things. i still overdo it sometimes, still get the occasional flare ups, probably shouldn't be drinking. i take tylenol pm's to knock myself out. i get sexually frustrated more than you would think. i still don't get the kind of feedback i think i should be getting from the opposite sex. i love school, but this semester isn't as exciting as last semester.
i feel like i'm always climbing uphill. like i'm fighting everyone around me even when they are congenial and everything. i feel like noone helps me with the things i actually need help with. "oh let me get that door for you." maybe the whole door thing came about so that we could feel like we care about each other instead of actually doing something tangible.
i just want a real connection, i want to be the most important person in someone's life, not to feel a connection that i think is going to burst at any second.
what happened to humanity?
i feel like i'm always climbing uphill. like i'm fighting everyone around me even when they are congenial and everything. i feel like noone helps me with the things i actually need help with. "oh let me get that door for you." maybe the whole door thing came about so that we could feel like we care about each other instead of actually doing something tangible.
i just want a real connection, i want to be the most important person in someone's life, not to feel a connection that i think is going to burst at any second.
what happened to humanity?