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What the hell is going on? I feel like my life just went through a recession. As if I went through some drastic trial to continue onward. Suddenly I'm being cast into this whole new world with all new experiences coming at me left and right.
Sleeping in someone elses bed? Configuring the most difficult college schedule in history for next year. Being told by my adviser that no one in MSU history has done what I"m doing (duh) and probably the idea of it having happened elsewhere is high high highly unlikely. She said it, "makes me very marketable." Shut up cunt this shit is getting too hard. Secretly taking an online physiology class while I'm in Japan taking 14 credits. Yeah, ok. Nothing is holding me back.
I'm taking in all these new experiences. Hi this is a different guy than the one you met last week and he's some kind of exotic mess that it's getting intertwined into the threads of life before I'm carried away on a 747 to the other side of the world.
I was introduced to the entire infamous young gay crowd in Michigan the other night. I felt uncomfortable as an understatement. I can't believe I put myself down so much in the past. There is much worse out there, and apparently I'm not that bad.
Being free of those feelings is what keeps me going everyday. I don't think I'll ever meet someone so full of deceit. I was so silly for getting so close again. Good god, to make someones heart grow cold, awful, none of that was my fault.
I have two finals tomorrow. One Tuesday. An oral on Wednesday. Then two ones that will make or break my grade on Thursday. This will be the most intense week of my life. Plus I have a very beautiful reward that will be awaiting me at the end of the week. Then it's all dancing with the summer nights air. Packing, preparing, flying off into the dawn of a new day. This is my life now, and there is nothing holding me back anymore.
Sleeping in someone elses bed? Configuring the most difficult college schedule in history for next year. Being told by my adviser that no one in MSU history has done what I"m doing (duh) and probably the idea of it having happened elsewhere is high high highly unlikely. She said it, "makes me very marketable." Shut up cunt this shit is getting too hard. Secretly taking an online physiology class while I'm in Japan taking 14 credits. Yeah, ok. Nothing is holding me back.
I'm taking in all these new experiences. Hi this is a different guy than the one you met last week and he's some kind of exotic mess that it's getting intertwined into the threads of life before I'm carried away on a 747 to the other side of the world.
I was introduced to the entire infamous young gay crowd in Michigan the other night. I felt uncomfortable as an understatement. I can't believe I put myself down so much in the past. There is much worse out there, and apparently I'm not that bad.
Being free of those feelings is what keeps me going everyday. I don't think I'll ever meet someone so full of deceit. I was so silly for getting so close again. Good god, to make someones heart grow cold, awful, none of that was my fault.
I have two finals tomorrow. One Tuesday. An oral on Wednesday. Then two ones that will make or break my grade on Thursday. This will be the most intense week of my life. Plus I have a very beautiful reward that will be awaiting me at the end of the week. Then it's all dancing with the summer nights air. Packing, preparing, flying off into the dawn of a new day. This is my life now, and there is nothing holding me back anymore.